picture perfect

2010-10-27T19:38:00.000+08:00

WITH ALL THE HATERS, YOU'LL STAND TALLER!

Don't be pushed down by people.

People hate cause you intimidate.

Take it as a form of flattery.

Smile cause haters make you strong! <3

stand up for yourself.

2010-09-09T12:39:00.000+08:00

all this while i've been hurting and crying
for countless times.

sometimes, we should let logic come in the way
and let go of our emotions.
cause when a man doesn't treat us right,
walk away.

let go even if there's so much memories.

the loser doesnt deserve me.

never say it only happens in movies.

2010-09-09T12:37:00.000+08:00

I never knew it would happen to me.at least.

You know when you have this thing with a guy for a year plus.
A year can be pretty long.
And suddenly there’s this period where you don’t talk for 3 months.
Obviously, i still have my feelings for him then.
And i was like a kid with cake when he came back.
Because they say if u push him away and he comes back, it means you mean something more to him.
And boy,he came back.

Five days into getting back
Facebook told me that he was ‘In a Relationship’ with another girl.
i texted the dude to ask him what was happening.
He replied sixteen hours later telling me he didnt know how to tell me.
He said ” It just happens. I really thought we stopped talking already”

what kind of fucking coward!!
it hurts.. but at least i know now that i don’t want to be treated like that anymore.

i got played.

updates :)

2010-08-14T01:29:00.000+08:00

CLASS OF 2010!

2010-05-28T22:43:00.000+08:00

2010-05-28T22:34:00.000+08:00

the holidays begin TODAY.

i'm so hyped up about it. i wanna go out and just chillax.

i can't wait for my trip!

i wanna go to the beach to tan myself.

and rest my eyes on the 'scenery' there.

if u get what i mean ;)

i hear the people there are pretty hot!

woot!

im high .

im single aren't i?

i should enjoy. that's life. :)

2010-05-28T22:28:00.000+08:00

it's daddy's birthday today!!

daddy

i wanna thank you so much for all that you've done

and im truly sorry for the tantrums that i throw.

i guess i'm just like u :)

thanks for giving me more than i can have.

you've always been the one that there's to support me emotionally.

i love you.

i don't wanna be a hypocrite.

2010-05-23T00:39:00.001+08:00

i know i've been writing about stuff on how girls should make their stand and get over and stay strong..

i'm giving myself 3 days to cry if i want to.i've got no time left.

and this time im prioritizing it all very well.

i mean i'm trying to see reality right here.

and whatever that has been happening in the past ten months of my life was just too good to be true?

i can't really decide on that but then

i'm here to make a vow to enjoy my last year in high school the best!

i don't wanna be wasting days, just sulking away.

in short : be a player! ;)
im out!

update update!

2010-05-21T17:41:00.000+08:00

since i see some readers, i thought an update might be great!

anyways,

tomorrow night, i'll be doing a performance with a group of my friends.

we'll be dancing to 3 songs.

Beware of the Dog -Jamelia

Bailalo - Kat Deluna

My Humps - Pussycat Dolls.

of course we're not doing the full song!

we're just taking a minute out of each song.

and there's also a duet / contemporary dance

Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis.

it's the version from So You Think You Can Dance.

i swear! it is awesome!! i'm so proud of all the dancers.

there's a total of 8 of us.

when we started out, almost half of the group was quiet and shy.

after 2 months of endless rehearsals and being together,

i do see them turn into someone different.

someone more daring and confident about themselves.

someone that perseveres and fight for something they like.

someone that can think right and

i was surprised by how mature they could be.

i am so in love with my babes!

after tomorrow night, all the weekdays of rehearsals are gone.

no more weekends at the studio.

no more frustration over dance steps

no more confusion about counts and beats

no more worries about colourful costumes .

it's definitely gonna be a sad 'goodbye'

but then these are the memories that we have in our hearts.

all the afternoons of heart-to-heart talk

the tears and the heart pain

the bruises and blood spilt

the conflicts and jokes

all of those will close as a chapter in our lives.

crap! i don't wanna end up bawling after our performance. :(
just secretly pray for me please :)

2010-05-17T16:02:00.000+08:00

IT'S MY SIS'S 19TH BIRTHDAY TODAY!!

i can't believe i'm not there to celebrate it with her! :(

it sucks!

but there's always a next year, i believe.

she's like a sister/bff/horrible babysitter.

i miss the crazy times we had.

i'm still not used to not having u around eventhough it's been 2 years.

darn.

I LOVE YOU,SIS!

2010-05-14T18:10:00.000+08:00

distance sucks..

been through it before?

MAY OH MAY!!

2010-05-14T17:55:00.000+08:00

MAY IS HERE.

MAY IS GONNA BE SCARY.

JUNE IS GONNA BE SCARIER.

BUT MAY'S MY SISTER'S BIRTHDAY. :)

I MISS HER TONNES.

I CAN'T WAIT TO BE THERE WITH HER NEXT YEAR.

TWO SISTERS TOGETHER?

THERE'S ALWAYS MISCHIEF! ;)

OH, LIFE WOULD BE DIFFERENT IF I DIDN'T HAVE A SISTER.

I LOVE HER TO BITS!

how am i suppose to feel?

2010-05-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

the teachers are telling us that they cant help us anymore.

we're literally helpless

does that mean hopeless as well??

should i be worried?

i just realised that this month is passing by really quick with the crazy rehearsals and all.

i can't wait to get the performance over and done with.

oh yea, did i tell u?

imma be performing at my school's 'Musical Evening'

gonna be dancing!

hope all turns out well!

i've never rehearsed for anything so hard in my life!

even training for interschool was way easier and much more relaxing.

June is gonna be a crazy month.

i'll make it through alive

im just not sure if i'll still remain sane

or lose my senses.

wish me luck?

2010-04-29T22:19:00.002+08:00

WHY DO WOMEN HAVE CRAVINGS?

2010-04-29T22:17:00.000+08:00

i don't know what's up with me.

i don't think i'm insane

and i won't blame my hormones for this
but i feel like becoming a mother already.
put sex aside,

i wanna wake up in the morning to hear my children screaming for me

i wanna do my daughter's hair every morning before she goes to school

i wanna remind my son to tuck in his shirt before he gets to school

i wanna cook dinner for a family of my own

right before i head to bed at night, i wanna stare into those eyes

and i wanna hear them say 'Mummy, i love you' .

2010-04-23T18:20:00.001+08:00

this is me after the photoshoot.

you gotta love it right? :)

DO YOUR PART FOR CHARITY!!

2010-04-23T18:05:00.000+08:00

www.malaysiabolehhandcraft.blogspot.com

IT IS A BLOG THAT SELLS HANDMADE SHOULDER BAGS AND BOOK CASES.

the beautiful work is done by a single mother with 6 kids. she has prosthetic legs but that does not stop her from working hard to feed her children.

if you are on a budget, just have a look. no harm just to click the link.
the bags look so beach-like to me! it's awesome!!

seriously people, it's better to support someone that is making honest money than to lend the money to someone that goes for prostitution or gambling.

i don't ask for a lot do i??

2010-04-23T17:58:00.000+08:00

remember i've been crazily talking about saving money??

i managed to!!

but guess what?

i left it in school and it got stolen!!

FML

it's almost the end of april!

2010-04-23T17:53:00.000+08:00

i'm alive!! can u believe it?

i've gone through so much this month,im emotionally and physically stressed out.
even food is not helping me out that much.

i've given thought into my future already.
how does PSYCHOLOGY sound?
after all the posts that you've read(if u do read) , what do you think?
does it suit me?

at the moment, i'm going into dancing again. this time, more active than ever. which is SO awesome.

this got me to thinking..

if i happen to make it to perth next year, i'll be so moody or stagnant (is that the right word?).

i've been running around with activities going on in school and what not.

and at perth, where i'm studying, i don't think i'd have anything to do.

my life would be so un-hectic. and so not thrilling. :(

i'm currently googling for dance schools near my school already! hahahaha

for the love of preparation!!

oh, im done with my photoshoot already.

it was beyond awesome.

the class really felt like a family.

all conflicts aside, all love and fun on that day itself.

high school's almost over. :(

2010-04-10T18:57:00.000+08:00

people people people!!

i can see that i havent written in AGES!!

anyhoos, my exam results are back. im glad that i didnt manage to fail anything but those are just mere passing marks. so unsatisfying. i gotta promise myself to work hard the next term. i let myself down this time. dont wanna let it happen again.

oh right, my 2010 resolution is to be a NERD!!

somehow i dont see this happening. hmmm..

my class photoshoot is coming up so soon! the anxiety is spreading like wildfire!!
i know i will so have fun.
im just not that happy with my hair at the moment. didnt manage to cut it during the exams cause it's like taboo to me.

i have this thinking that the information goes into my head and fills up my brain so badly, it clings to my hair. therefore, if i were to cut it off during exams, i would lose all my facts.

im sooo.. weird.
and now my hair's like crazy flat poodle. i need volume!!!

APRIL'S gonna be a busy month. oh gosh. 

oh yea, did u know that i got april fooled?? oh me bollocks!

but i love it anyways :)

2010-03-23T16:17:00.000+08:00

im having exams now!

God forbids me from coming online!hahah.

BUT here i am :)

im making it to kl after my exams!
mum says she wants to go shopping.wohoo!!
dad's there to watch Grand Prix there.
while i'm on the journey to save and diet, i guess i'll be there for the eye candies.
i might be able to spot a really hot guy in KL all for myself.
hhahaha
eww..
who would wanna have one when they can have five?!?
ditto?

im having exam blues and im posting this up to keep myself high.
im not expecting much from this exam.
it feels like any ordinary test
cause i haven't been studying.
talk bout revision the night before the papers!

you out there, take care aight!
plenty of my love to you people

xoxo

kim

2010-03-17T00:51:00.000+08:00

im really bugged out bout leaving high school now.

the thought just keeps coming into my head.

im having mental images of saying goodbye.

:(

:(

:(

:'(

2010-03-15T02:01:00.000+08:00

i dont want anything else to care about

except my studies

family

and friends

cause the rest

aren't worth my time.

2010-03-15T01:54:00.000+08:00

Pixie Lott - The Fall

Pixie Lott is awesome! she dances and sings so well.

ok, im here to praise her and respect her.

im not here to be some 11 year old sticking her posters all over my room

i just think she deserves all the praises.

2010-03-15T01:35:00.000+08:00

it is so important to flood your high school life with pictures!

they bring back a thousand memories

and no matter how horrible u look in them,

it's sure to put a smile on your face!!

i don't wanna say goodbye to all my classmates!! :(

2010-03-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

i got to tell myself to be better than that so i know that i'm capable of deserving better.

just a daily reminder for myself.

right now, im thinking of the perfect location for a class photoshoot.

Plan A was the beach but then another school did it.

wouldn't be very nice if we took it.

conflicts to be avoided.

so yes, back to square one,

i need ideas.

because i never had a Plan B.

ideas, anyone?

Dear March

2010-03-02T23:58:00.000+08:00

Listen to what i have to say.

Please make time pass slower but make each moment so special for me.

It's gonna be a really busy month and i hope that you'll be nice enough to cut me some slack and some time for relax.

I still got plenty to catch up with.

I promise to behave myself.

thanks.

xoxo

2010-02-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

im not even two decades old

and i went for my class reunion already

i haven't met them in almost a decade

nine years, to be exact.

it made me high!!

i love the feeling.

it was so good to see some of them again,

all so grown up,

so different,

we chatted about our childish past,

our bullying days

and our horrible habits.

there was this awesome hit of warmth

like pushing yourself back to yesteryears

where things were so easy back then

and how we were responsible for nothing

and that feeling was absolutely glamorous!

we have to do it again,loves!!

then we'll have a bigger crowd.

why it hurts.

2010-02-25T22:48:00.000+08:00

he says the sweetest things.

but the words don't only go to you

he play with his words

make them sweet

for the other girls.

he says he care for you

but his actions tell me otherwise

he say it's not a game

but at the same time

there isn't an inch of seriousness

he flirts with the other girls

and say you're his only

but

his reputation means more.

his reputation

the one that fools around

the ones that goes for the girls

the one that uses words

words, and only words.

yes, that reputation.

it's fucking annoying, i tell you.

i tell you..

2010-02-22T19:45:00.000+08:00

don't mess with me.

don't toy me around.

don't push me to walk away

when i leave, im not coming back

and you'll be losing out.

i've got enough people coming and going

you'll be just like any other daily passerby.

know your limits.

2010-02-20T23:24:00.000+08:00

i like how i'm feeling right now.

im serious this time

2010-02-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

about saving.

during the beginning of the year, i was so proud of being able to save up to rm30.

then temptation came.

i think it was chocolates.

savings gone.

didnt have the willpower after that.

it's seriously exhausting to save money.

it drains my energy out somehow.

now, i really wanna do it.

i'm going to save.

but i dont think im going to set a target

because i know mine are never realistic

and only in one direction- failure.

but i'm going to save anyways!

gonna splurge at Singapore.

i know what i want in mind already.

im waiting for the day to come!

loves!

to what extent

2010-02-18T19:03:00.000+08:00

to what extent should we push ourselves

towards something that doesn't respond

to what extent should we break ourselves

until our heart turns stone cold

to what extent should we hold on

when hanging on makes all the mess

to what extent should one strive on

only to know failure's our success

to what extent do we tolerate

with such silly attitude of oneself

to what extent do we hate

till our heart loses a piece of itself

to what extent do we persevere

only to realise it's all pointless

to what extent do i let thoughts linger

till it screws my emotions like this

what ain't right.

2010-02-18T18:46:00.000+08:00

what's wrong here are our rights.

as a citizen, as a teenager, as a student, as a child and as a sister.

im not going to elaborate much on this.
just let this linger in your mind.
it's true huh?

2010-02-18T11:40:00.000+08:00

chinese new year and valentine's day was blissfully relaxing.

so damn satisfied with holidays this time.

school's starting in a few days. gots ye tests and assignments to do.

i wish i could say that i love the teachers so much. but maybe not at the moment.

oh yea, i forgot.

HAPPY FOXY CHINESE NEW YEAR AND SEXY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

if i could bedazzle the greetings, i would. but this internet thing or what not won't let me.

you get me now?

2010-02-11T18:14:00.001+08:00

i know what my intuition is telling me

and boy, i won't let you play me like a fool

because i've got my eyes enough to see

that you putting up a front, way too cool.

if you decide to lie

give it a second try

better yet,

save those words

to inflate your dates

because i've had enough

oh, those dirty sugar coated words.

im not one to cry

cause if u treating this as a game

just give me a day

and i'll erase off your name

after all, there's so many other fishes in the sea :)

i believe that you don't have what it takes to break me down.

2010-02-09T23:29:00.000+08:00

can we not waste efforts

in putting in hopes

for things that we're unsure of

even if they're certain,

no man can foretell

what the forwarding hours are.

im tired in hoping

for a surprise that would impress

because as the needle tocks,

my believe in you has gone far less.

it lies dead

it gives no response

but it doesn't hurt

because

your dreams,

they do not crush.

oh,the beauty of emotionless creatures.

2010-02-09T02:05:00.000+08:00

although we don't say it,

everybody wishes

for a special valentine's.

2010-02-06T18:58:00.000+08:00

IT'S FEBRUARY!!!

THIS IS SCARY!!

soon enough, march will just be tomorrow.

my eyes, they form this wealthy bag right underneath.

Chinese New Year is coming and so is Valentine's Day!!

i want it to be different this year.

cause 2010 is all about difference to me. :)

it's scary, i tell you..

2010-02-06T18:55:00.001+08:00

how time pass so fast
and we're not given the opportunity
to inhale luxuriously
or to breathe in style

every amount of oxygen taken in
feels like it's been forcefully pushed in
by the passing of time
and the antics of life.

grab hold,now
of what you can
to tell everyone how
the joy they've brought upon
your book of memories.

embrace the days with joy
sing peaceful songs
and tell the story
to all
that life
is nothing close to long.

2010-01-31T17:59:00.000+08:00

im caving in,

slowly.

i let it take me in,

the quietness.

i realise,

no busy schedule

can distract me enough

to push the thoughts out of me.

i realise,

there's no one,

no one to trust.

i realise,

the life's circle,

has people coming in

and vanishing off

to someplace

far off.

i realise,

that efforts you make,

they get misinterpreted.

i realise,

that only in trying

i get accused

of struggling

in doing something right.

i realise,

the number of tears

don't compensate

for life's lessons.

i realise,

that 'inner beauty'

is just a comfort term.

i realise,

being judged

both has its ups and downs

however, hurtful.

i realise,

we all grow up

sometimes, with things

that we could have wished for

but greed got in the way.

with a little hope

and a silent prayer,

let it be beautiful memories

that make me smile

at the end of the day.

2010-01-29T17:22:00.000+08:00

im chasing after time so i can hopefully tell it to slow down.

i'm packed to the max. i can't breathe.

i sit on the chair, right in front.

and i feel light in my head.

like im about to collapse any minute.

the affair.

2010-01-29T17:18:00.000+08:00

you bring me out.

i meet your friends.

they play nice.

they keep cool.

but i check your phone

and i see the calls.

im not dumb.

i can tell.

you dont have to hide

don't even take the effort to try.

i can see it through those eyes.

i don't want to look into those eyes

the ones that made me survived through the night.

the thought that tortures my mind.

the one that's killing my feelings inside.

the secret i spoke only to myself,

on the outside, no one can tell.

it bothers me,

it scars me.

it ruined the dream

of the girl that had hopelessly hoped.

2010-01-23T13:43:00.000+08:00

there's the pain you feel

but the smiles conceal

i tell myself im not troubled.

i tell myself that there are others in something similar,

maybe worse.

these wounds, they won't heal

because memories, they kill

i don't ask for riches

at the moment

just

the open arms reaches

for an older sister that you have stolen.

2010-01-23T13:37:00.000+08:00

what doesn't kill me is only gonna make me stronger.

im going to stick to this one.forever.

2010-01-18T18:59:00.000+08:00

you played with all the alphabets

and i fell for your words.

sayang.

dear housewives.

2010-01-16T03:30:00.000+08:00

Centuries ago, housewives were housewives. They stayed at home to organise the house chores and educate their children. The children mostly learnt through experience.

Amazingly, in this 21st century, majority of the housewives are just plastic mannequins. They hire maids to do the chores and they send their children to school thinking that the school staff will educate their children for them. Housewives these days spend their idle time gossiping and spreading rumours about other people. These so-called housewives meddle into the lives of the student body just to make sure their child looks 'perfect'. This is disgusting. Imagine the shameful act you have to pull just to make your child look good because apparently every child reflects the background of their family.

Dear housewives,

If u really want to produce top grade children, be there for them and actually listen to them. Don't care so much about 'who's doing what at where' or treat us like 'Topic of the Day'. Just watch your child. They may be angels in your eyes. You have no absolute idea what kind of demonic child you have bred.

That's my two cents for you,extremely nosey mothers.

2010-01-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

im leaving a quick post to tell u that i miss u guys!

and tomorrow is FRIDAY!!
i appreciate Fridays so much now!

psst! did u notice the new change in my blog? ;)

love it? hate it?

let me know!

2010-01-09T01:38:00.000+08:00

it gives me the determination not to be like you!

fuck this.

2010-01-09T00:18:00.000+08:00

have a good listen to this song.

live life like nothing hurts because everybody deserves to be happy.

first week of school down!

2010-01-08T18:40:00.000+08:00

IT'S FRIDAY!!

oh yeah!

school has been really demanding this whole week!

but time passed really fast

and soon enough 2010 will be history to us.

i don't want to grow old so fast

but i want to see the world already

ok, i am officially tired.

the weekend gives me ample time to snooze

but i got tests coming up

and birthdays to kill :)

MY BESTIE IS TURNING 17 SOON!!!

and my birthday is like 9 months away.

im already so excited for her.

she's turning old!

i love her so much!

enjoy the weekends, love!

xoxo

2010-01-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR

to all you sexy readers!!

i wanna thank you all for putting up with me

and my crazy rants that goes on forever.

make the best out of 2010!

whatever it is, don't let anything ruin it for you.

2009-12-29T19:26:00.002+08:00

i see no fault when a girl dances in her panties when no one is around and she's locked in her own room.

for this, i am stupid.

2009-12-29T19:21:00.001+08:00

it's less than a week away from my holidays being over and im just beginning to enjoy it.

oh, u stupid people for ruining it for me.

now, i have no idea how to usher in the new year.

im excited.

but i can't keep up with my own emotions sometimes, they're just too exhausting.

acck!! i haven't written my resolutions yet!

i just had this crazy thought in my head to put so much pressure on myself in everything that i do till i burst like fireworks. :)

oh yea, me and sister has this resolution to become bitches in 2010.

maybe in my case, BITCHIER.

i just realised that i put so many colours in my post that when i reread my own blog, it pisses me off.

but mono-colour can be really boring.

im really demanding arent i? even towards myself.

i will be back soon.
loves, kim

2009-12-27T18:02:00.000+08:00

u know the feeling of being just a kid

and secretly wishing for a happy fairytale ending?

those dreams become crushed by the harsh reality that we all have to face.

yes, you do encounter silly little heartaches when you're a teen

but the worse thing is to see the things that you believed in most

was just a picture that's been plastered all along.

it was like really thick make-up to all that ugly mess

and when it unfolds itself

the hurt you feel

just kills u slowly

because you've loved so much and

you've believed so much

yet, you can tell no one.

what my christmas of '09 is.

2009-12-27T17:55:00.000+08:00

the heart bleeds another time
to realise that you’ll never be mine
it hurts the feelings of another soul
and it’s ugly-painted all over her world.
i hate turning 16
because reality kicks in
and the beauty that you have been seeing
isnt as pretty as you’ve been believing.
i don’t wish for another day of this
i don’t want any of your kiss
my heart, it cannot take anymore of this
because this heart is looking for what you cannot give.

it's Christmas Eve!!

2009-12-24T14:52:00.001+08:00

i wanna party till the New Year is here.

jingle jingle..the bells!

2009-12-23T02:06:00.000+08:00

guilty as charged for abandoning my blog for some time.

i know im not making money from writing

or having crazy fans getting online just to read my blog

but it's like an opening for my feelings and rants.

hey, there might be someone that's probably bored to death and looking for something to do

or filling up their spare time trying to get into the teen life < ;) >

and guess what, i don't think glancing through my blog posts will cut of your oxygen supply.

play nice,people. Santa is watching. I'm sure you all want your pressies.

and guess what! i've made a christmas wish list and boy, am i reasonable. i made a countable list and uber reasonable things to get. but if there's anyone out there that's nice enough to get me a gift, let me know. i'll give you the full 101 list :) im nice enough to give u choices.

christmas is so different this year. i haven't been looking forward to it. but i hope that it's gonna be a great one this year. it's like a last-minute looking-forward-to thing. can't believe i just procrastinate on my emotions.

anyways, i hope you all have a jolly christmas!!

make Santa proud.

Note to Santa : Make me 2 inch taller,please?

2009-12-17T18:03:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybEehM6zgFU

go watch! i swear it will make ur day!

break the circle.

2009-12-13T19:19:00.000+08:00

ok. i think i've been hanging with pretty much the same group of people or the same kind.
2010 is coming soon and i don't want to have a high school life with just this state of friends. lols.
i see some KK readers here. i'm planning to drop by in KK. i just don't know when. maybe u can holla at me? or email me or leave me something in my chatbox or whatever then we can meet up when im there. so awesome. =D i hope you're not some old pervert reader.

i wish i could do the same for tumblr but everyone lives across the world or maybe just thousand and thousands of miles away.

can u tell?

2009-12-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

im worried.can u tell?

i know i'm looking forward to 2010 but it's only 21 days till then??
and 25 days till school reopens.
it's scary and sucky.

i think i still have some unfinished business of 2009 that i might want to settle before moving on to the new year!

so much ahead to look forward to!
so,i'm not gonna let anything come in the way now :)

2009-12-07T01:45:00.001+08:00

im still stuck and addicted to tumblr. so ~~not~~ fun.

i've been going too.not enough to keep my mind off things though.

met people i haven't seen in ages.

oh yeah, i was shopping today.and there's this girl that suddenly grabs me on my shoulder.
she asked me if i remembered who she was.
how can i forget that innocent smile and that caring heart?
she was a student of mine that i had taught during my long holidays last year
it was sure nice to see her.
even nicer to be remembered. =)

i cant wait for something fun to happen.
i want to be under the sun!!
i wanna burn my skin and feel the pain of it peeling again

i have to start training for my interschool.
or at least start losing weight or else everyone in the team would think otherwise.

im looking forward to the holidays now.
amen.

with love,
kim
xoxo

2009-12-04T03:51:00.000+08:00

i am blogging!!
im so sorry it's been dormant for quite some time.

im currently addicted to tumblr now.
go see.go follow :)
i like it tumblr cause i can just reblog and i see that in this world, there are people that goes thru the same stuff as i do.
oh, the joy!

im not gonna waste this holidays.
i wanna make the best of it.
it's my last holiday before my SPM.
time to party!!

christmas is coming soon!!
im glad im 16 because the presents become cooler. woot~
but i dont feel the vibe yet.
gonna set up the christmas tree soon!!

i have so many things to do this holidays. my lazy ass is just killing me.
im addicted to one tree hill now.
it's like my heroin.gah!

i still got school homework. plenty of it.

imma go out and see the world.
keep myself in for far too long.totally pointless.
time to explore and enjoy youth.

gonna think hard about my 2010's resolutions.
it's gonna be tough.

enjoy 2009 before it's gone, people!

xoxo
your beloved blogger
kim

the year is almost over

2009-12-01T13:34:00.000+08:00

happy december!!

honestly, im freaking out!! it's already almost towards the end of the year.
i've got public exams next year and im gonna separate from my friends after that.
this is so scary..
i hate the thought of it.

i guess i should concentrate on the people that have cherished me and those that are worthy of attention.

i guess i'll be coming up with a new list of resolutions soon. and this time i wanna make it realistic.
well, i think my 2009 list was pretty realistic but i guess there was too much to keep up with.

i can feel a blardy good year in front of me!
i'll f8#k up anyone that tries to ruin it for me.

cheers to u!

go sip on smthg today!make urself high!
and have a good time with the people u love!

wow, right?

2009-11-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

this year has passed too fast. i dont think i've enjoyed this year enough yet.

u see people talking about high school being the worst years in life.

well, i believe otherwise.

next year, will be my last year with the people i've spent most of my life with. and im gonna separate from them?can u imagine that?

leaving to an unknown place with unfamiliar faces.it's scary..

we all talk about meeting one another at one particular spot during one particular time of the future. but what makes u so sure that u'll see all your friends again?

i admit. it is really creepy to try seeing into the future cause we're never really sure what will be ahead of us.

but they say, take life as a surprise. expect the unexpected. live through whatever that life has for us.

anyways, what im trying to say is that i've been pushing myself so hard in all directions that i didnt have that much time for the really important things in my life. my studies, my family and my friends.

even when the exams are over, i still find myself busy and unable to spend time with all of them like i used to.

damn ,the last few years of high school is suppose to be fun. but even in school everyday, i find myself missing all my friends.

i couldnt go to the last two parties, im sorry. i guess it's just that time of the year again where i go emotionally disturbed about separation from you guys.

yes, painful but yet oh-so beautiful

tumblr me :)

2009-11-14T17:42:00.000+08:00

http://kimthefab.tumblr.com/

i've gotten my tumblr!!
made up my mind to keep both. tumblr is whr i mostly express myself in pictures and quotes. here is where i rant and share to the world in words :)
go see go see!

IT'S SO ME!!

tell me!

2009-11-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

should i get a tumblr and delete this?

or should i have both?

one for rants and one for information perhaps??

what is the difference?

i always end up going on and on about ~~nonsense~~ reality.

when all u have to do is believe.

2009-11-10T15:44:00.000+08:00

i know.cheesy aint it the title??

u're gonna say 'does she really think that it works?just believing?'

lemme tell u, IT DOES!

what do u do first thing in the morning? tell urself that it's gonna be a bad day? u're making yourself believe that it's gonna be a horrible day and you think that u are gonna die trying to pull through it.

no matter what the situation is. be it a beloved's death, a pretty heated argument with your best friend, an unpresentable egg in finals, or a broken leg from football we know that we still have to pull through life.

i dont know what has gotten into me. i know turning sixteen is suppose to mean that i've gotten up a cup size or maybe an awesome new red convertible like brats. ~~I've got only one of those~~ =P I think i've got the wisdom thing going on right now. and im proud of having it, although sometimes it pains my bloody mind that i think like an adult?? But that is what pushes me forward.

Do believe it when i say nothing is there to block us from reaching out to our dreams.

Make yourself believe it.Trust me, you'll never regret this.

We've all get into trouble and mishaps but what is life without them?

How boring can it be when u are happy everyday and there's nothing to challenge u to move forward in life?

And we are suppose to enjoy and appreciate the full spectrum of human emotion.

it's a gift to be able to go through it.

The best feeling is to know that u've overcome your problems and u're brave enough to face the obstacles in life.

If not for the the things that we encounter, would we be able to feel the great relief of returning home and running into the arms of our mothers?

Would we feel the gret comfort of falling into the arms of our loved ones?

It ain't so bad after all right?

Believe that today is gonna be great, tomorrow even better, the future the best.

all u need is time.

2009-11-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

heartbreaks happen all over the world, every second.

it doesn't take a crowd to hurt someone's heart.

it just takes distance and silence to bruise them.

here i am, admitting to a scar in my heart.

im not doing this to show people how terrible i feel.
i just wanna write something that can relate to people.
i feel that it's nice to share experiences with the world because we are one.

it's the time together that u'd miss most

the random messages u get at the most unexpected moments

the sweet talks that can give u the tingling sensation

the smile that parts across the face when u're praised

the feeling that u're loved even when the other person happens to be so far away

the nights that u'd stay up just to see their face

the crazy moments where u'll spill ur 'silliest things done'

the highly excited times where u'll share ur deepest darkest secret

the little things that are done that make u feel like u're the only one on this planet

the cute times when u do nothing but make fun of one another without getting angry because u're just too happy with that person

the times when open up urself to the person about ur past

the nights when u'll trade songs and share fabulous music

the way the other person make u see the world

the comfort u feel in just being urself

the one moment where the other person says 'u got me'

im not gonna deny that i dont miss it.

what can we do bout it now that it has passed?

like said before

'sometimes love comes around, and when it knocks u down

just get back up when it knocks u down'

i know saying all this is gonna seem like 'woah!easier said than done'
of course it is!

i never said that im not upset. i am.

but how long can a person possibly be upset bout this?

what happened to the other fishes to the sea?

~~i hate using that cause i dont like being compared to a fish but i think it's the only suitable metaphore here.~~

thank goodness i have awesome friends around me to help me thru this.

and lucky enough i got a family to love and share magical moments with.

i dare u to accompany me on this path of healing if u'd allow me to hear ur story?
u know u cant do this alone :)

i'd be there for u

because caring for others heals the soul

when u're down..

2009-11-03T10:02:00.000+08:00

'sometimes love comes around, and when it knocks u down,
just get back up when it knocks u down..'

we choose to cry over our losses, we choose to complain about our luck, we choose to criticize our flaws

we don't take time to realise how fortunate we are.
we see things,mostly material things because we're so intoxicated with the feeling how money can buy happiness.

we got this seriously wrong.

things happen for a reason. if things are meant to be, let it be. Why force it the way u want to be? Haven't u heard of destiny? If that limited edition pair of fabulous knocker heels is not meant to be yours, then there must be another that fits u perfectly. The other pair might not be limited but at least it ends up in ur closet. Life's never fair. Whoever said it is?

no matter how much it hurts us inside, we still have to move on in life.

i only get to be sixteen once in my life. why ruin it?

we have friends there for us, we have family members who love us. dont let them down.

think about those that are suffering from wars. the children and the innocent wives.. that is seriously unfair for them.

what have we got compared to them to complain about?

over over over!!

2009-10-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

FINAL TERM EXAMS ARE OVERR!!

woot!this feels abso-fking-lutely awesome,i tell u.

but that doesn't mean im having less stress now.
i still got a long 'To-Do- List' to be done.
but at least it has nothing to do with studying
but it's all serious stuff.no joke.

i like the hectic life.

i like the noisy morning alarm scaring the shit out of me.

i like rushing down to office with coffee,better yet with a cab.

i like hours of long assignments,of course smthg that i like.

i like rushing home to have a nice shower.

i like meeting up with friends for dinner after that.

i like having drink and a good dance just to shake the day's stress off.

do it city style..

i dream of being in the fashion industry.
or like writing in magazines, fashion editor..

oh!the dreams!
they are so so far away..

it shall last.

2009-10-25T17:49:00.001+08:00

i saw your face

with your smile that you brought along

it made my heart race

because i've been waiting far too long

i want to have the time where i can just speak to you

i want to go months back when i can hang out with you

i miss the times when we go for random meals

oh,the beautiful memories time steals

i was overwhelmed to see you

double checking to see if it's true

u have no idea how much you've been missed by all

when we still look forward to your random telephone call

the memories of yesteryears

are grasped within our hearts

with strong hopes to last
and accompanied with bittersweet tears

Aaron Teo, you are missed by all.

when we take things for granted.

2009-10-22T14:45:00.000+08:00

we wake up in the morning to find ourselves complaining about the same old boring routine. that's what we all do. we complain about having to eat at the same place and to wear the same pair of faded jeans. we do not appreciate how it has made a part of our life so significant. what if we didnt have even have a place to eat? you'd probably be thinking 'yeah right.my dad would get it for me' think again. not everyone is as fortunate as we are.

we take people for granted. we tend to use people only when we need them. without realising it, we dont appreciate them like how we are suppose to. We dont say 'I Love You' enough to our parents and to our dear friends. it's only when tragedy happens, then we realise how much we've negelected people and things. it's only when it's too late, then we'll learn our lesson.

why regret?

mummy told me never to.

I LOVE YOU ,GUYZ!

sixteen things to do.

2009-10-17T01:01:00.000+08:00

1. CLEAR my wardrobe.

2. Then fill it up with more clothes.

3. Get serious with my dancing.

4. To do a photoshoot.

5. Run a marathon for charity.

6. Go for a body massage!

7. Have a proper sleep of more than 10 hours.

8. Cut junk food down to five times a week.

9. Go for futsal matches.

10. Start to earn money, again.

11. Then try saving the money i have.

12. Be gentle and treasure things given.

13. Have a quiet 5-minute everyday.

14. Involve myself in a charity event.

15. Spend a day with the orphans.

16. Grow taller!

there's a reason why i chose 16. =)

the truth hurts..

2009-09-26T00:52:00.001+08:00

should i say this is another rant that i have?

when i went out not long ago, i saw plenty of old man with young women, from China.

i suppose u see where this is heading to now.

I always have this thought 'Why cant the guys just keep their fucking dicks in their pants?!' especially when they are old and married. I know it's a guy thing to get it going but come on, u are married and isn't there your wife there for u to that with??

Even so, you think it's so cool going around showing ur homies that you pimping other girls,young and fresh ones. You say it loud and proud that you're cool and you're a man for doing that. That is where i want to correct you. YOU ARE A FUCKING PUSSY FOR DOING THAT. You are married to your wife. Dont tell me u dont have the guts to do it with her just cause she aint tight like before? You think she feels just as good to sleep with you. She's nice enough not to complain and u are oh-so-grateful by sleeping with a younger lady outside. You married her for goodness sake! Stick with her.

It's seriously sad how i see ladies of their golden age, supposedly enjoying their time but their husbands break their opportunity of enjoying it when they swore on the altar that they will love till the very end. That is why i call u ball-less! U can't even keep up a promise! what can u do as a man?!

i so do not know why i used the pronoun 'you'. i dont think there'll be any old creepos reading my blog, Those that stash away young mistresses and buy fake LV goods for them cause they cant afford the real one. And the old lechers that dress desperately young to impress and those that can afford real stuff just for sex. Hey, i can't blame the young seductress cause that's what she does for a living. Karma will hit her good when she gets her veneral disease. I blame you for not being able to hold urself back from temptations!

oh and the other thing!

now guys are using this stupid thing 'You love me only if u sleep with me'.

like hello!!since when this came up!?!

Girls are not Kleenex ok. You dont purchase us from supermarkets. Don't mean when u giving gifts, u buying us. We can get what we want when we want, two times better than what u can give!You dont use us then dispose us just like that!

Don't take us for granted cause you know that we're there. I tell u what, we can party a million times harder and play a million times smarter than u. Wanna bet?

It's just our nature of being loyal.

But i think it's only right in society these days that we all play around with relationships. After all, we're not married.

This doesnt make it sound as if u can play with us!

Wait till ur heart gets crushed one day :)

Girls, imma be there for u.

We'll heal hearts together.

i hate it when they're right.

2009-09-25T03:18:00.002+08:00

they told me not to try

they told me i would cry

they told me u would break my heart

they told me it's best we're apart

Logic leads the way

But emotions make me sway

The gentleness of words

The uncompromising absence

talking bout the future like it's happening

going through the past like they were just songs to sing

what are u gonna do about it if im insecure like that

you never give me the assurance cause i know u're that bad

but i cant do this any longer

cause im not any stronger

how am i suppose to let go

i cant bear to do so

but they'll tell me i need to

cause that way,i'll be far from you.

still mad.

2009-09-19T21:36:00.000+08:00

u know what made me bled the other day??

i was in a rush,heading to meeting at KFC and i saw this store that sold handbags.

OMFG to the maxx!!

THEY SOLD LOUIS VUITTON GRAFITTI!! what the bloody hell. i got so pissed!my blood boiled.i could feel my low blood pressure shoot up to the maximum level of high blood pressure.

im so mad! Marc Jacob's creations are awesome!! DONT BLOODY RUIN IT. damn damn damn!!

i was too mad, too upset and too MAD, i didnt have the time to take the picture. even when i left, i was in a rush..

i just managed to ~~growl~~ swear at the stall owner :)

parallel.

2009-09-15T15:57:00.002+08:00

Parallel lines extending, into forever’s end,

Sorry broken hearts, that refuse to mend,

Destined never, to touch or to meet,

Could it be true love, that you seek?

I’ll write it all down, with a paper and a pen,

And then on your journey, will you I send,

To look for the one, who makes you sing,

Nameless songs to the sky and wind.

So bring me the light, of a dying star,

The song of a bird, who flew too far,

The scent of a flower, too late in spring,

And light from the moon, on silver wings.

A smile of compassion, in a world of sin,

The touch of a hand, upon wounded skin,

The portrait of a soul, the blind man drew,

All of these things, I ask of you.

Woven with the love, of the family and friend,

I’ll compose the symphonies, that to you, I’ll lend,

Pen down the stories, of the sun and the moon,

And turn them all into, sad pretty tunes.

So take my words, and hold them dear,

For there’s nothing else, you need to fear,

Go in search, of your long lost heart,

I’ll watch with rue, as you depart.

I hope you’ll find, your true love’s kiss,

Mend your heart, and get your wish,

Cause it sucked having, to write all this,

Since in the end, it’ll be you I miss.

Parallel lines extending, into forever’s end,

Sorry broken hearts, that refuse to mend,

Destined never, to touch or to meet,

Maybe it was you, that I did seek.

by: A-Mo-my-Nous =D

the world is in equal ratio.

2009-09-14T14:57:00.002+08:00

'Kim's coming. I can HEAR her! '

' I bet that is Kim'

As u can see, i am tall. TALL TALL!

our head grows in ratio to our body,so does our feet.

In this case, my voice grows proportionally to my frame.

People complain i'm always too loud and i tend to disrupt things with my voice.

well i think this is a gift.

When attention is needed and u can't get it, I can call for it WITH my voice.

When u and i are in some form of danger, you can't find the voice to speak.. I can call for help WITH my voice.

When you need to get ur point across, i can intimidate, WITH my voice.

When you wanna find me but u can't cause u're too short, stuck in the crowds, you can always find me, WITH my voice.

When you need a cheer up, I am there, WITH my voice.

When you need an awesome supporter, I will cheer WITH my voice.

When you need a speaker after a late night out drinking and karaoke-ing together, I still can speak for you WITH my voice.

Can you do all that without dificulty?

I know i don't.

We all have our own unique traits and my voice happens to be one of many that i have =)

Your warped face and annoying eyebrows might be a part of your 'uniqueness' but i dont recall blabbing crap and complaining about it. I am nice.

If you still have a problem with my voice, FUCK OFF.

unity.

2009-09-12T16:39:00.004+08:00

We're all seeing it..
No enthusiasm for celebrating it..

We're all a country. You complain about the country not going any further. That's because the people refuse to bond. We're all blaming one another, in this case , blaming one's race for their mistakes. It's like blaming a whole family when one of the member is wrong. The thing that we all do not see is that it's not the race that should be blamed. It should be the people that has done wrong. For the sake of the happiness in life,we should all unite to 'abolish' those that harms the country. Not create more conflicts and pushing great people out of our life.

It's sad how little children live their life happily in school with friends everyday when suddenly their parents tell them not to hang out with a certain group just because of their race.

I think this stereotype thinking and classification of races should stop.. LIKE SERIOUSLY.

delectable...

2009-09-10T02:06:00.003+08:00

eyes to die for
the lips to melt for
and the body to kill for
plus, he's a dancer..

*drooling*

when u want a time capsule.

2009-09-10T01:43:00.002+08:00

im seriously alarmed at how fast time has passed over the past few months..

i remember back to the beginning of the year, i was so moppy bout going into form 4 and at that point, tomorrow seemed like forever to me..

as i stroll along the corridors in school, now i see images of myself. I miss being rebellious!! i can't stand being who i am now. I feel as if im back to being a bird stuck in a cage,but this time not physically. My soul has been locked up in there.

i wanna be so loud that ppl can hear me from two blocks away.

i wanna run around and smack all the backs.

i wanna be able to laugh like a monkey and throw my head back and forth.

i wanna jump about just to express my happiness.

Now, i just feel plain old and mature. ewww..

I can't wait for exams to be over.. I want my six weeks of holidays!! Hate the system for cutting down an entire week! =(

too sweet to take in.

2009-09-10T01:33:00.002+08:00

Say words
that can bloom flowers
sugar coated letters
that makes my heart flutter
Perished in thoughts
Carried away in hopes
Wake me up
because im leading nowhere
with this stupid set up
that will leave my bare..

2009-09-04T15:10:00.000+08:00

doesn't mean when you don't hear it
things do not happen
i have emotions that i do not show
cause im still trying to live in pretence
that the things i hear isnt real.

hear me out.

2009-09-02T15:40:00.002+08:00

I don’t know where to begin

Just give me a moment to let it sink in

I can’t bear the weight of this

Nostalgia hit me in the head, ‘oh how I miss..’

The pain I have to hide

It’s killing me inside

I see my future shatter

I see my memories alter

Because things aren’t like they seem to be

Oh how I thought I was lucky to be me

Wasn’t I in mind?

Do you really love with your heart?

Can I still call u mine?

Because I hate to know how things drift apart

Promises of being there for me

When my heart aches

When my problem goes a-mess

But don’t you see

What you’ve done cannot bear

Any deeper scar in me

I’m not just saying

I so do wish I am ~~fucking~~ dreaming

Cause I’d even slap myself

To know that this ain’t reality.

How can things be like before

When history has already unfold itself.

How I wish everything I hear isn’t true

Because deep inside, I still want to love you.

going at Bolt speed.

2009-08-22T01:13:00.002+08:00

i admire his determination.
i love his courage.
i want his strength.

USAIN BROKE TWO WORLD RECORDS! hurrah for him!

i'm trying to save money at the rate he's running.
my piggy bank's gonna get so fat so quick! =D

what is it like?

2009-08-16T03:43:00.002+08:00

it's insane!
in a good way,the feeling it gives send chills down my spine.
on the other note, it leaves with that great burning sensation that makes you restless.
im indecisive
because each choice has its own consequences.
which one am i prepared to face?
can i pull through this silly dilemma?

THIS IS SUCH A WASTE OF MY FUGLY TIME.

2009-08-16T03:34:00.001+08:00

i hate it when i love you so much
and i can't make myself hate what u did.

i am confiding myself with food.

i might get hated.

2009-08-14T23:09:00.004+08:00

THE WORLD SHOULD STOP PRODUCING FAKE GOODS!!

darn it!it's irresponsible people like you that support these stupid actions.

just get the damn original thing ok!!

dont ruin the good nature of it.

i know u think it's probably not worth it to pay for the product's brand.
if that's the case, dont get the retarded fake version as well!
there's so many brands on the market.
get something else.
dont bloody get the fake one.

u probably think i should leave the world alone but NO!
im not gonna let that happen.

the scenario's like this.
a girl of her early twenties finally getting her dream Louis Vuitton after 3 years of saving.
then she uses it out.
and sees another ah lien using the same bag.
and the ah lien bought it at 1/12 of the price!
it totally ruins the excitement of owning something branded and nice!
the thrill of owning the bag and smelling the leather
ALL CRUSHED
just cause of assholes like you who supports goods-imitation!

stop it!stop it!stop it!

dont wanna try.

2009-08-11T14:03:00.002+08:00

i don't want to bother anymore.
let me just have some quiet time alone.
you don't have to say
cause i have eyes to see
and maybe cause u've screwed up your priorities.

this is a heartbreak. i hate this, a lot.

thy shan't tolerate-th

2009-08-06T23:14:00.001+08:00

men.and their stupid ego.

thriller.

2009-08-06T14:02:00.003+08:00

it's THRILLER day this saturday!!

gonna perform.gonna dance.gonna scare.

2009-08-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

party mode!

2009-08-04T15:35:00.004+08:00

am in love with vintage!! inspiring me to get me wedding done.vintage style,babeh!!plenty of gorgeous dresses..!this means more weddings...!! =P

can't wait for this month to be over. gonna spend some time with family, gonna have juicy time with friends and some love time for dance..

ECSTATIC!

2009-08-02T17:20:00.000+08:00

let's keep the distance.

2009-08-02T15:40:00.000+08:00

vid's worth a thousand words.

sincerity

2009-08-02T01:28:00.002+08:00

i dont think im being highly sensitive about this but it's like when a person apologises to you, it's always better when it's face-to-face or at least through a phone call. a text can be so emotionless..

what's even worse when they are so-not sorry at all and they give you this 'hey.sry bout just now'. Like hey!sure..SRY my ass!!

if u dont feel like apologizing, dont bother!dont waste your time and my phone space.

please!be sincere bout something.short forms can cut off the true meaning of everything.

even simple 'ily' is so STUPID! if u really love someone, dont tell me u can't take time just to type a meaningful yet short 'I LOVE YOU'

gosh..what lousy fingers!
and it's because of fingers like that, the sincerity is taken away from everything!!

*it's one of those times when i go really sensitive again*

me want!

2009-08-02T00:36:00.002+08:00

SHIZZ..

I wanna travel around the world.
I wanna go to India to drown myself in rich-coloured fabrics and awesome saris
I wanna go to Mexico to drown my taste buds
I wanna go to Africa to visit the little children
I wanna go to London for the scene and their plays!
I wanna go to Italy for their cheese and sweet treats
I wanna go to Spain for their happy lifestyle
I wanna go to the States to be in Hollywood
I wanna go to Hong Kong to eat good dim sum!
I wanna go to the Caribbean to get a sexy tan
I wanna go to North Pole and get my tongue stuck to the ice
I wanna go to Greece to witness a wedding
I wanna go to New Orleans and go crazy for Mardi Gras

sadly..

i'm stuck HERE.

2009-08-01T00:29:00.002+08:00

the fact that the picture is still there shows that it still has plenty of sentimental value to me
although we have plenty of differences now.
why not make the best of our last two years?
why make a scene from everything?

now u feel it.

2009-07-31T23:58:00.002+08:00

u say things without thinking twice. u may not mean it but it may hurt others. and now that you've got it back at you, you feel the slight burning sensation in ur heart.

ouch..

treat others the way u wanna be treated.