WITH ALL THE HATERS, YOU'LL STAND TALLER!

Don't be pushed down by people.

People hate cause you intimidate. 

Take it as a form of flattery. 

Smile cause haters make you strong! <3

stand up for yourself.

all this while i've been hurting and crying
for countless times.

sometimes, we should let logic come in the way
and let go of our emotions.
cause when a man doesn't treat us right,
walk away.

let go even if there's so much memories.

the loser doesnt deserve me.

never say it only happens in movies.

I never knew it would happen to me.at least.

You know when you have this thing with a guy for a year plus.
A year can be pretty long.
And suddenly there’s this period where you don’t talk for 3 months.
Obviously, i still have my feelings for him then.
And i was like a kid with cake when he came back.
Because they say if u push him away and he comes back, it means you mean something more to him.
And boy,he came back.

Five days into getting back
Facebook told me that he was ‘In a Relationship’ with another girl.
i texted the dude to ask him what was happening.
He replied sixteen hours later telling me he didnt know how to tell me.
He said ” It just happens. I really thought we stopped talking already”

what kind of fucking coward!!
it hurts.. but at least i know now that i don’t want to be treated like that anymore.


i got played.

updates :)

CLASS OF 2010!

the holidays begin TODAY.

i'm so hyped up about it. i wanna go out and just chillax.

i can't wait for my trip!

i wanna go to the beach to tan myself.

and rest my eyes on the 'scenery' there.

if u get what i mean ;)

i hear the people there are pretty hot!

woot!

im high .

im single aren't i?

i should enjoy. that's life. :)

it's daddy's birthday today!!

daddy 

daddy 

daddy

i wanna thank you so much for all that you've done

and im truly sorry for the tantrums that i throw.

i guess i'm just like u :)

thanks for giving me more than i can have.

you've always been the one that there's to support me emotionally.

i love you.

i don't wanna be a hypocrite.

i know i've been writing about stuff on how girls should make their stand and get over and stay strong..

i'm giving myself 3 days to cry if i want to.i've got no time left.

and this time im prioritizing it all very well.

i mean i'm trying to see reality right here.

and whatever that has been happening in the past ten months of my life was just too good to be true?

i can't really decide on that but then 

i'm here to make a vow to enjoy my last year in high school the best!

i don't wanna be wasting days, just sulking away.

in short : be a player! ;)
im out!

update update!

since i see some readers, i thought an update might be great!

anyways, 

tomorrow night, i'll be doing a performance with a group of my friends.

we'll be dancing to 3 songs.

Beware of the Dog -Jamelia

Bailalo - Kat Deluna

My Humps - Pussycat Dolls.

of course we're not doing the full song!

we're just taking a minute out of each song.

and there's also a duet / contemporary dance

to

Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis.

it's the version from So You Think You Can Dance.

i swear! it is awesome!! i'm so proud of all the dancers. 

there's a total of 8 of us.

when we started out, almost half of the group was quiet and shy.

after 2 months of endless rehearsals and being together,

i do see them turn into someone different.

someone more daring and confident about themselves.

someone that perseveres and fight for something they like.

someone that can think right and 

i was surprised by how mature they could be.

i am so in love with my babes!

after tomorrow night, all the weekdays of rehearsals are gone. 

no more weekends at the studio.

no more frustration over dance steps

no more confusion about counts and beats

no more worries about colourful costumes .

it's definitely gonna be a sad 'goodbye' 

but then these are the memories that we have in our hearts.

all the afternoons of heart-to-heart talk

the tears and the heart pain

the bruises and blood spilt

the conflicts and jokes

all of those will close as a chapter in our lives.

crap! i don't wanna end up bawling after our performance. :(
just secretly pray for me  please :)

IT'S MY SIS'S 19TH BIRTHDAY TODAY!!

i can't believe i'm not there to celebrate it with her! :(

it sucks!

but there's always a next year, i believe.

she's like a sister/bff/horrible babysitter.

i miss the crazy times we had.

i'm still not used to not having u around eventhough it's been 2 years.

darn.

I LOVE YOU,SIS!

distance sucks..

been through it before?

MAY OH MAY!!

MAY IS HERE. 

MAY IS GONNA BE SCARY.

JUNE IS GONNA BE SCARIER.

BUT MAY'S MY SISTER'S BIRTHDAY. :)

I MISS HER TONNES. 

I CAN'T WAIT TO BE THERE WITH HER NEXT YEAR.

TWO SISTERS TOGETHER?

THERE'S ALWAYS MISCHIEF! ;)

OH, LIFE WOULD BE DIFFERENT IF I DIDN'T HAVE A SISTER.

I LOVE HER TO BITS!

how am i suppose to feel?

the teachers are telling us that they cant help us anymore.

we're literally helpless

does that mean hopeless as well??

should i be worried?

i just realised that this month is passing by really quick with the crazy rehearsals and all.

i can't wait to get the performance over and done with.

oh yea, did i tell u?

imma be performing at my school's 'Musical Evening' 

gonna be dancing!

hope all turns out well!

i've never rehearsed for anything so hard in my life!

even training for interschool was way easier and much more relaxing.

June is gonna be a crazy month.

i'll make it through alive

im just not sure if i'll still remain sane

or lose my senses.

wish me luck?

WHY DO WOMEN HAVE CRAVINGS?

i don't know what's up with me. 

i don't think i'm insane 

and i won't blame my hormones for this
but i feel like becoming a mother already.
put sex aside, 

i wanna wake up in the morning to hear my children screaming for me

i wanna do my daughter's hair every morning before she goes to school

i wanna remind my son to tuck in his shirt before he gets to school

i wanna cook dinner for a family of my own

right before i head to bed at night, i wanna stare into those eyes 

and i wanna hear them say 'Mummy, i love you' .

this is me after the photoshoot. 

you gotta love it right? :)

DO YOUR PART FOR CHARITY!!

www.malaysiabolehhandcraft.blogspot.com

IT IS A BLOG THAT SELLS HANDMADE SHOULDER BAGS AND BOOK CASES. 

the beautiful work is done by a single mother with 6 kids. she has prosthetic legs but that does not stop her from working hard to feed her children. 

if you are on a budget, just have a look. no harm just to click the link.
the bags look so beach-like to me! it's awesome!!

seriously people, it's better to support someone that is making honest money than to lend the money to someone that goes for prostitution or gambling.

i don't ask for a lot do i??

remember i've been crazily talking about saving money??

i managed to!!

but guess what?

i left it in school and it got stolen!!

FML

it's almost the end of april!

i'm alive!! can u believe it?

i've gone through so much this month,im emotionally and physically stressed out.
even food is not helping me out that much.

i've given thought into my future already.
how does PSYCHOLOGY sound?
after all the posts that you've read(if u do read) , what do you think?
does it suit me?

at the moment, i'm going into dancing again. this time, more active than ever. which is SO awesome. 

this got me to thinking..

if i happen to make it to perth next year, i'll be so moody or stagnant (is that the right word?). 

i've been running around with activities going on in school and what not. 

and at perth, where i'm studying, i don't think i'd have anything to do.

my life would be so un-hectic. and so not thrilling. :(

i'm currently googling for dance schools near my school already! hahahaha

for the love of preparation!!

oh, im done with my photoshoot already.

it was beyond awesome. 

the class really felt like a family. 

all conflicts aside, all love and fun on that day itself.

high school's almost over. :(

people people people!!

i can see that i havent written in AGES!!

anyhoos, my exam results are back. im glad that i didnt manage to fail anything but those are just mere passing marks. so unsatisfying. i gotta promise myself to work hard the next term. i let myself down this time. dont wanna let it happen again.

oh right, my 2010 resolution is to be a NERD!!

somehow i dont see this happening. hmmm..

my class photoshoot is coming up so soon! the anxiety is spreading like wildfire!!
i know i will so have fun.
im just not that happy with my hair at the moment. didnt manage to cut it during the exams cause it's like taboo to me.

i have this thinking that the information goes into my head and fills up my brain so badly, it clings to my hair. therefore, if i were to cut it off during exams, i would lose all my facts.

im sooo.. weird.
and now my hair's like crazy flat poodle. i need volume!!!

APRIL'S gonna be a busy month. oh gosh.

oh yea, did u know that i got april fooled?? oh me bollocks!

but i love it anyways :)

im having exams now!

God forbids me from coming online!hahah.

BUT here i am :)

im making it to kl after my exams!
mum says she wants to go shopping.wohoo!!
dad's there to watch Grand Prix there.
while i'm on the journey to save and diet, i guess i'll be there for the eye candies.
i might be able to spot a really hot guy in KL all for myself.
hhahaha
eww..
who would wanna have one when they can have five?!?
ditto?

im having exam blues and im posting this up to keep myself high.
im not expecting much from this exam.
it feels like any ordinary test
cause i haven't been studying.
talk bout revision the night before the papers!

you out there, take care aight!
plenty of my love to you people

xoxo

kim

im really bugged out bout leaving high school now.

the thought just keeps coming into my head.

im having mental images of saying goodbye.

:( 

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:'(