p.s. drool plenty

i just went through the pics in my camera
and
saw the pics of food i've taken in Australia.

somehow, the chinese cuisine there is much much
tastier than the ones we have here.
oh,poor Kuching.

hmm..with all the food there,
it's no wonder i got 4kg heavier then.

oh wells,that was THEN.i am now.

=D

smile smile smile.

updates of ME!!

i've got so much to look forward to.
yippy yay!

~loves~

life is living me.

this is a song i have been listening to for the past two years. i love it!

i've got great taste so i'm sure you'll love it too. =D

it'd be really awesome to listen it on ur headphones and put it to full volume.the song will somehow wash u away with it... *floats*

what a crying shame.

how do u put it in a nicer way?

it's disgusting the way you treat a friend.

it's horrible how u can blame a friend for what you have done.

it's unbelievable how u can not know what's distracting you.

it's a shame to see people change into something so unpleasant.

can u put disappoinment in words?
how do u receive a shocking news?

funny how u can see your friends turn their back on you.

it's eye-opening.
don't come back to me.
EVER.

i wanna...

there's always a million things that one wishes to do.

if only we could clone ourselves.be at five places at the same time but still have the same heart though

where would i go?what would i do?

- i want to join cooking classes.like the ones on tv =D

- vocal lessons would be smashingly awesome

- sewing lessons (i dont know why)

- intensive dance lessons

- join the football academy.and maybe beat the guy's team.

- i want to learn how to put on really good make-up

- get a job as a personal stylist (i can spend all my time shopping)

- i want to live in a gym.makes me feel healthy.lmfao!

- join a really insane walkathon.maybe 30km?

- to own a really big kitchen and bake 76 kinds of cookies. 300 of each.

- oh oh!!to catwalk like crazy.till my legs are sick of heels.

- to tie both ends of my body and pull 'em.i need to gain more height.

- learn rhinoplasty so i can do it on myself.

- fashion designing course

- get a tattoo done on my side

- shrink the size of my BIG feet.

- make people smile!

wanna be a Superhuman!!

high

i see myself.in the mirror.and i gasp.
i'm in love with myself.
cause my nose looks tad sharper here!!

HELL YEAH IMMA DO THE JAI-HO!!
dance dance dance the night away.
oh,how i dont want to grow old
cause i want it to last forever,the way u make me sway.

rock-i-tude!

i dunno why but i feel like rocking now.
like to rock in a rock band perhaps?
omg.
that's so awesome.
we can bang our heads back and forth.
hear the fluid in our brains shake.
lol.

i wanna be the screamer of the rock band!

get over your insecurities.

im sick of hearing you push me down like that.

i hate it everytime u try to embarrass me in front of others.

what's the reason behind this?

are u so insecure about yourself that you have to bruise people like that just to make yourself feel good?!

are u such a coward to admit defeat?

i used to seem fine everytime u do it because i treated u like a friend.

you have no idea how u can bruise people like that!

just reflect and learn!

it shows.

when i had my blog titled 'BREASTLESS' the other fine day, i had plenty of views.like PLENTY.

this clearly shows what kinda perverts they breed all over the world.lols

maybe not much of a pervert but horny.haha.gosh!

it turned out to be different from what you thought it would be huh?

well, i had u fooled then. =D

what's far more tiring than being confused?

right now, my schedule is packed to the maxx almost everyday.
it leaves me no time for my family.
then if i do, i'd have homework to finish.

i've realized so far that when something happens,it happens to me.
i don't get it. LIKE SERIOUSLY.
have i done smthg mean in my past life?
is this karma?
well, i think i've been pretty nice.
so , what's up with this mental torture that i have?
why does it seem that i own the black cat?
why everytime smthg nasty comes, it befalls upon me?

im not saying this just cause im going through something right now.
this has been happening to me since the end of last year.
i'm recalling and compiling everything
and it hits back at me of how unlucky i've been.
maybe it's just me.

if things are this way, i can't help it.
i can't do anything to make it change.
even if i did, then it wouldn't be how it's suppose to be.
i'll let Fate do the decision making.

a colour.

there's a distinction between black and white.
When something is black, it's said to be evil. When there's white, it immediately refers to pureness.
Black is always associated to death. White is hand-in-hand with life.
If you're wearing black, you're labelled dull. When wearing white, you are considered bright.
With the existence of something black, it means bad luck. With white,the opposite.
Black links to something dirty. White makes you cleansed.
Darkness is portrayed with black whereas hope is reflected with white.

so where does grey fit into?
does it mean that it's only this or that?
is there no compromise?
so when one hurts, the other feels no pain?

it confuses.
we can't make all the right choices at times.
who ever said living was easy?

im thinking grey...

BREASTLESS

this friend of mine suggested that this should be the title of my blog post.hmm..thanks?

to come and think of it, there are many good songs that can be ruined by this word. 

'you leave me breastless, you're everything good in my life'-Shayne Ward(No Promises)

'go on, go on, leave me breastless.tempt me,tease me...'-The Corrs(Breathless)

'i get so breastless when u call my name'-Corrine Bailey Rae(Breathless)

'over the edge and i'm just breastless...'-The Jonas Brothers(Lovebug)

good day,mate!

SUGAR POWER!!

zap zap!! the old me is back.

right now,there's this song stuck in my head. Flo-rida's 'Sugar'!!

well well well, what has happened so far??

MY BABE IS BACK FROM AUSTRALIA!! i miss her so much!
im so happy that i can annoy her all over again then i can just talk and talk to her non-stop.
oh how i can annoy her with my loud snore at night =P (i'll promise to use my nasal spray next time)
now i can sing off key with her and not be considered the noisiest and most horrible sounding thing at home.
i got someone young enough to be able to put up with my rough wrestles and smacks.

anyways, i'm rather proud(?) of myself these past few months.FOR EVERYTHING that i've been through.

time for cakes~

stay strong.

what's not worthy.

it's never worth it to help a friend that doesn't care

it's never worth it to cover up and ur friend doesn't learn

it's never worth it to screw up ur studies just because a guy crushed u

it's never worth it to take your own life when u feel down

it's never worth it to let ur family down just cause u're so emotional

it's never worth it to be there for someone that never cared

it's never worth it waiting for someone,life's not a million years

it's never worth it to make life so miserable when the person no longer bothers

it's never worth it to love someone that makes u cry so much

it's never worth it..

never,at all.

be strong.

the whole world has a smile on.

the whole world has a memory to keep.

treasure what u have from the past

and be enthusiastic about the future.

gaH!

well,tomorrow's the last day of exams!!

i've got mathematics and history.

honestly,i think im beginning to love exams.

i like the short hours.

i like having not to learn new stuff but to just focus on the ones that i've learnt.

and the fact that i just found out the difference between antivirus and anti-spyware. LMFAO!!

im no computer-kind. talk about bimbo-ness! =P

right now, im just as confused as before.maybe even more.. =(
i dont wanna get back into my depression mode.

tick tock!!

time is precious now!!

i get what it means..

im having exams.

should have revised earlier?

no time for regrets.

im so stressed it's giving me pimples!!

I HATE PIMPLES!!!!

but i got happier at the same time.

it's about time i did.

strong much?

i'm still hurting...inside.
how strong do i have to be?

it's true...

YOU'RE NOT SORRY -TAYLOR SWIFT

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can say that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no, ohhh

You're not sorry no no ohhh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh

You're not sorry, no no ohhh

well done!!

im not talking bout how cook the meat has to be.
im CONGRATULATING the mooters!!

You all did an awesome job.

girls,im so proud of u.
i cant think of a better way than to spend my hols with u.
im gonna miss waking up to see u guys
or spending the nights going through moot cases.
im gonna miss the late night suppers
im gonna miss the times we spent pulling out our hair just to figure out a good argument
im gonna miss interpreting long and weird sentences with u two
im gonna miss laughing awkwardly in the library
im gonna miss writing and writing and writing when the lawyer speaks
im gonna miss the last two weeks i had.

special thanks to our lawyer, Mr Paul Tang.
fantastic lawyer that's absolutely dedicated to his job.

i.heart.earth.

don't u realise smthg??
when u jumble up the words 'earth', you get 'heart'.

in conclusion,

SAVE YOUR HEART,SAVE THE EARTH.

ppl!!turn off your lights tonight.
take the time to cuddle with your loved ones in bed.
take the time to appreciate the stars.
take the time to pamper yourself in the long bath.
take the time to do some serious thinking.

don't let the game play you
rule the game and win it well.

my apologies.

the truth hurts
a lie's worse.

now i have to be getting back to basics.

"start singing that same old song,
with a rougher tone
and the little black dress."

i would smash a guitar if i could.
we tend to want the things that we know are impossible.
knowing that it'll never happen, we still wanna get ourselves scarred.
unintentionally, we hurt the people that we love most.

(blank)

[Verse 1]

Youve always been a tough girl
But you feel you're about to break.
You're feeling stuck and out of luck
Watching your dreams all slip away.
You've been working mornings in the kitchen
and nights at the corner store.

As your life flies by
you wonder why
And you know that there's gotta be something more.

[Chorus]

Hold On
But don't hold too tight
let go its gonna be alright
Don't run away from what your heart is saying
Ohh Be strong
Face what you're afraid of
Come on
Show them what you're made of
I know its hard when your hope is gone
But you gotta keep holding on.

[Verse 2]

You hear a voice thats calling
And its telling you to make a change.
It's time to fly
And say goodbye
And move on to a better place
You know you gotta take the first step
To get where you wanna be

Just get on track and don't look back
Cause its the only way you're gonna be free.

[Chorus]

Hold On
Your gonna make it
Yor gonna be stronger
Hold On
Hang in there baby
Just a little bit longer
Hold On
There your gonna be fine
Dont give up
Be strong
When the going gets tough
You gotta Hold On
Hold On

[Chorus X 2]

Yeahhhhh
Hold On
Hold On
Hold On

mission accomplished.

i had one of the best camwhore sessions with my bestie last night!

then she got sick.

really bad blocked nose.

and i swear, it wasn't because of me. =(


THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS.THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS.THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS

will we pull through?

today clearly shows how things are at the moment.

although no intentions are there, everything is clear now.

there's no turning back on time.

in time to come, we all have to face reality.

no matter how painful, we have to pull through.

worth the love.

James Morrison is awesome!
His songs are so full of life. definitely worth a listen!
His eyes are fab too! =P

#1 Prom Brainstorm

well, it's been quite a while since i've had a post related to fashion so im gonna make u adore these!!

i've really really been thinking bout le grand prom next year!!

girls, go hunting for the perfect dress!

guys, pay close attention!

got a great theme in mind,anyone?

imma SURVIVOR!!

ok.

here's the thing.

i've revived myself, a bit, from the depressed person i was,maybe still am.

i'm talking a bit more.

definitely laughing and smiling a lot more.

right now, im not looking forward to going to school at all.

i don't hate the subjects.

i don't hate the canteen food, that much.

i don't hate being a prefect.

i don't hate the assignments.

i hate the fact that it's less than 2 years left with my friends
and how things have changed so much ever since form 1.

there's no point looking into the past.

i'd just focus on whatever's happening now

and just smile at everything that's around me.

i can't make my life THAT miserable.

TOTALLY POINTLESS.

i want it back!!

funny how my body is no longer letting me grow taller

this is frustrating

even worse, i think im shrinking!! =(

MEGA-sadness.

like from 173

down to 172

then down to 171!!

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgeee

please God.i think i have been a very nice person lately.

dont do this to me

dont take the one thing i know that i have

i've been losing everything lately.

not this,now..

unidentified

bring me a sunflower.

please tell me it'd be ok.

history repeats itself...

wanna find a GOOD camwhore time!!

need a smile
need a laugh

i know things change
and there might be some rain
but the clouds are gonna clear
and the sun's gonna shine again

lippy lips lip =P

first of all...
another WENJC has blown his candle today.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY, ELDARIUS!!

it's Bahaman day

Lippy day.

man,love his lips.ngehehe.

this guy is so so darn nice. a real gentleman.
well,not really.
his testosterones are like going to the maxx level
so he's kinda perverse =D

kidding!!
thanks for being there for me,dude!!

close to perfect.

"with the global recession,we should splurge in order to keep the country's economy going."

i heart this so MUCH!

that's a call for us to be superheroes to our own country. =D

girls,indulge yourself at the mall,spa,sauna,whateever!!

guys,spend it on the girls =P

one lousy week

let's try pretending that things never happened.

let's try for a minute that things haven't changed.

let's try and pretend that u bother.

let's try to be happy for just ONE hour(it's only 60 minutes)

let's try not to care so much.

let's try to behave myself.

let's try to make it happen just like the good ol' times.

let's try not to forget what we used to do.

let's try not to be so paranoid.

let's try not to be so pessimistic.

let's try to calm myself down.

let's try not to think so far.

let's try not to ruin my holidays.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS, KIDS.

BIG 100!!

do u even know that this is my 100th post??

well, at first u didnt. im sure.

until u saw what's on top.

anywayz,im not gonna blame u for not being able to remember such a fab news cause im not sorry for it =D

---------------------------------------------------

since im always going on about how i want things this way or that way
or how it's suppose to be
or how wrong things are just cause it doesn't suit ME,
im gonna make a change for this post.
a huge change!
it's still gonna be about yours truly,of course!
but i'm gonna be talking bout my mistakes and what im gonna do bout it.
whether u like it or not with that im gonna do,
some of u are gonna bear the consequences of it.
=D

• ok..im LOUD!i know i know.and im not suppose to be anymore after being a prefect and after having 3 of my favourite ppl in the world have ye same bday wish.so..i will tune down from now on.i promise.

• for le next one,hmm..this is difficult.now im not sure if i wanna drop anymore of my bad habits.ok ok.i got one.umm...i will not procrastinate.in short,be diligent in my studies.

• since im not exactly specialised in anything at all besides being freakishly loud, i think i have to be an all-rounder myself. not be perfect, but at least be above retardation level.

• refrain from swearing!!haha.this is a major MUST!then i'll replace those words with severe randomness.

• im not sure bout this one cause i've said it a million times already but im gonna put it here anywayz.i think i should reduce my junk food intake.maybe 4x a week??omg!

• since im starting to drift away during lesson time, i promise myself to F-O-C-U-S and not fall asleep when teacher's teaching!

• please just let me reduce 2kg of body lard?

• i just realise that im no good at dancing.i feel pro-to-the-opposite when i stand close to those dancers. so now, im going to start training hard!

• since there's a downslope in the economy now,im gonna be very kind to cash. but i will let it run WILD when im on holidays.that's my only condition. =D

im going to stop at my ninth one before it becomes double digit because by then, i wont be able to cope.

i haven't been in the right mood lately.sorry.my blog is currently boring.

i have this feeling like i wanna declare Valentine's Day again today.hmm..make it ME LOVE DAY!! =D

HAPPY ME LOVE DAY, EVERYONE!!

recent recent recent

ok..hmm..

i passed 3 papers and flunked my Chemistry. it's normal,right??

well,im ok with the results.i can't say im impressed by it.wtv!

anywayz, interschool is over =( it's so freaking sad..

i miss getting burn under the hot sun and having to cheer like nuts!!
i miss the company too!

got 6th out of somewhere around 15-20 ppl.WALKATHON.so not satisfying.

Sport's Day coming up.

YELLOW,YELLOW,YELLOW,YELLOW!!

i think i might got banana-colour crazy...!!

i've got so much things floating around the cerebrum of my brain,it's tiring!!

oh, ra ra ra!!hope i get to spend time with my fellow mates soon again!!

i really miss u guyz!!

thinking of you...

i heart the song.the songwriting is awesome too.so much life to it..lol.

so right now,im addicted to this song and Pokerface by Lady Gaga.

at the momento,im like feeling empty in some part of me.the time when i feel restless and i just wanna listen to some music and fall asleep in a dark, cold room with my warm comforter.

i know..it's a Sunday afternoon and i shouldnt waste it.that's why im typing this post.oh you better love me.. =D

anyways,i've been doing a lot of missing lately.it's like i miss things,people and some other stuff.

i miss the times when i can just barge into my sis's room and mess her things up because i know that she'd clean it back.

i miss the time when i jump on her bed on purpose,knowing that she'd get annoyed.

i miss Sundays with daddy when we eat chicken rice together.except that i eat chicken and meat,with no rice.

i miss hanging out with my fellow 3b-ians and how we used to talk endlessly during lessons and we'd akways be happy.

i miss being naughty and happy like i didnt have to care about anything.not my hair,my attitude,my volume,my hyperactivity...

i miss the times when i bully the person sitting in front of me.how i use my artistic creativity on his ears and his neck.

i miss the crazy sleepovers we had.

i miss the oreos and milk before bed with u guys...

i miss hiding myself behind the pillow whenever i watch horror movie with my sister.i haven't watched any since...im waiting for you to come back,babe!!

i miss how we used to go 'jogging' and end up buying waffles and ice blended coffee.

i miss fighting for ice cream with my sis and how i always win cause my mouth is way bigger than hers.

i miss the crazy afternoons at home with my bestie.im sorry if i never made it out with you.

i miss the crazy gossip sessions in class with my Barbie family.

i miss having the Bear Clan and how we acted like maniacs doing the crazy bear action.

i miss singing 'You Can Have Whatever You Like' at BM tuition and doing the crazy dance with those crazy dudes.

i miss not having to worry about my studies at all like i was stress-less..

i miss how i was able to watch 'Australia's Next Top Model' eventhough it was the night of PMR.even for tests now,i have to burn the midnight oil like it's an exam.

i miss going swimming with the guys and how they bully me at badminton before that.

i miss having to be so pissed at my sis whenever i had to wait for her to get something done.procrastination is never the answer but that's a dead habit of hers.

i miss burning my skin under the sun @ noon with my sister and how we complained like crazy when we got burnt.

i miss laughing with my sis at my aunt when she does her infamous 'Bicycle' dance.

i miss staying up late with my sister and how we sang horribly and off key into the mic.

i miss karaoke-ing with my sis in perth.we should have ended up dancing on the chair =D

i miss having the 3b reunions and the swimming evening.im not complaining bout the 4b now but i do still think about the year before.

i miss having family days and how me and my sis used to giggle so hard and so loud that it made my daddy angry.i've got no one to giggle with now.sis,i hope u still giggle when u come back.

i miss going all the way to Matang to picnic and eat the whole afternoon with my sis and how she'd be there for me to make sure i dont fall when i stepped on the rocks.but she always end up laughing at me.

for all these things which i miss,i know i cant do anything that can make time turn back.it's just memories that i know that i'll be grateful for..

this is a part of growing up and taking responsibilities.

i love you all so much..

ordeals.

"We make those who love and care for us cry but we cry for those who do not love and care for us"

i got this in a forwarded email.and well,i think it's almost entirely true.life is so ironic.

it's cause u make me smile
it's cause u make me cry
my heart no longer runs dry
with emotions filled inside.
but i can't tie you down
i can't keep you in
because feelings will change,
this i realize,
this i realize...

i lost my common touch.im losing my undefined sense of feeling.my soul has been snatched.

there are times when you would feel really really down and think the world has turn its back on you.it's just seriously depressing.

this song might be a cheer up!!and if there's nobody to dedicate it to you, im specially posting this up for you.have a good sing!!

what's in the air??

it's the day of love and more love and kisses and more kisses...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

to sis @ aus
to daddy @ indonesia
to all my dear bitches for being there for me all the time
to the people that are just on the 'Ok' scale =P
to the people that i've hurt in my life but i still miss and love

with love,
kim.



p.s. if it's not your own money that you're spending but it came from ur parents,LOSER!!way way NOT impressive at all..

stick with me

haven't got the free time.haven't got the free time.haven't got the free time to post something good.

i think imma make u all drool when im free. =D

i haven't camwhored in a long time.maybe i should start.boost me confidence a bit more.

im tired tired tired tired.my eyebags are visible-r than usual and i start to sleep really early.

im starting to love the feeling of running and panting really hard like it's so hard to breathe and when im out of breath.

i wont apologise for what i've become
this is a blessing in disguise
after all that has to be done is done
i'd see the true side of you
you'd cheer me on even if i failed
you'd guide me through even if im lost
you'd stay with me even if i've been a bitch
you'd be happy for me if i achieved goals
you'd be proud of me even when i fall
you'd aid me well even if it's just a bruise
you'd encourage me to be the best even if it's impossible
you'd believe in me when everyone turn their backs against me
you'd be my friend through thick and thin.

time does not allow me to be with you all.but u have to know that i still do think bout you guys...

you could have done a better job at being a loser.

i miss blogging!!

school work has been very unkind to me
tuition has been very tiring
extra curricular activities sucked out all my energy

i've lost confidence in myself.
why?
why did it happen?
is it because of people like you that keeps pushing me down?
never giving credit whenever it is due.
instead u find all my mistakes just to crush me.
you dont appreciate and value me
you think that im no good for anything.

the pressure is killing me
making me panic
making me weak
making me bad
yet,i can't run away from all that.
forced to face it
forced to break down
forced to like it.

i shall now learn to be optimistic!!

yes,i will start tomorrow.

at the same time, conquer 2009,ya'll!