i see no fault when a girl dances in her panties when no one is around and she's locked in her own room.

for this, i am stupid.

it's less than a week away from my holidays being over and im just beginning to enjoy it.

oh, u stupid people for ruining it for me.

now, i have no idea how to usher in the new year.

im excited.

but i can't keep up with my own emotions sometimes, they're just too exhausting.

acck!! i haven't written my resolutions yet!

i just had this crazy thought in my head to put so much pressure on myself in everything that i do till i burst like fireworks. :)

oh yea, me and sister has this resolution to become bitches in 2010.

maybe in my case, BITCHIER.

i just realised that i put so many colours in my post that when i reread my own blog, it pisses me off.

but mono-colour can be really boring.

im really demanding arent i? even towards myself.

i will be back soon.
loves, kim

u know the feeling of being just a kid 

and secretly wishing for a happy fairytale ending?

those dreams become crushed by the harsh reality that we all have to face.

yes, you do encounter silly little heartaches when you're a teen 

but the worse thing is to see the things that you believed in most

was just a picture that's been plastered all along.

it was like really thick make-up to all that ugly mess

and when it unfolds itself

the hurt you feel 

just kills u slowly 

because you've loved so much and 

you've believed so much

yet, you can tell no one.

what my christmas of '09 is.

the heart bleeds another time
to realise that you’ll never be mine
it hurts the feelings of another soul
and it’s ugly-painted all over her world.
i hate turning 16
because reality kicks in
and the beauty that you have been seeing
isnt as pretty as you’ve been believing.
i don’t wish for another day of this
i don’t want any of your kiss
my heart, it cannot take anymore of this
because this heart is looking for what you cannot give.

it's Christmas Eve!!

i wanna party till the New Year is here.

jingle jingle..the bells!

guilty as charged for abandoning my blog for some time.

i know im not making money from writing

or having crazy fans getting online just to read my blog

but it's like an opening for my feelings and rants.

hey, there might be someone that's probably bored to death and looking for something to do

or filling up their spare time trying to get into the teen life < ;) >

and guess what, i don't think glancing through my blog posts will cut of your oxygen supply.

play nice,people. Santa is watching. I'm sure you all want your pressies.

and guess what! i've made a christmas wish list and boy, am i reasonable. i made a countable list and uber reasonable things to get. but if there's anyone out there that's nice enough to get me a gift, let me know. i'll give you the full 101 list :) im nice enough to give u choices.

christmas is so different this year. i haven't been looking forward to it. but i hope that it's gonna be a great one this year. it's like a last-minute looking-forward-to thing. can't believe i just procrastinate on my emotions.

anyways, i hope you all have a jolly christmas!! 

make Santa proud.

Note to Santa : Make me 2 inch taller,please?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybEehM6zgFU


go watch! i swear it will make ur day!

break the circle.

ok. i think i've been hanging with pretty much the same group of people or the same kind. 
2010 is coming soon and i don't want to have a high school life with just this state of friends. lols.
i see some KK readers here. i'm planning to drop by in KK. i just don't know when. maybe u can holla at me? or email me or leave me something in my chatbox or whatever then we can meet up when im there. so awesome.  =D  i hope you're not some old pervert reader. 

i wish i could do the same for tumblr but everyone lives across the world or maybe just thousand and thousands of miles away.

can u tell?

im worried.can u tell?

i know i'm looking forward to 2010 but it's only 21 days till then??
and 25 days till school reopens. 
it's scary and sucky.

i think i still have some unfinished business of 2009 that i might want to settle before moving on to the new year!

so much ahead to look forward to!
so,i'm not gonna let anything come in the way now :)

im still stuck and addicted to tumblr. so not fun.

i've been going too.not enough to keep my mind off things though.

met people i haven't seen in ages.

oh yeah, i was shopping today.and there's this girl that suddenly grabs me on my shoulder.
she asked me if i remembered who she was.
how can i forget that innocent smile and that caring heart?
she was a student of mine that i had taught during my long holidays last year
it was sure nice to see her.
even nicer to be remembered. =)

i cant wait for something fun to happen.
i want to be under the sun!!
i wanna burn my skin and feel the pain of it peeling again

i have to start training for my interschool.
or at least start losing weight or else everyone in the team would think otherwise.

im looking forward to the holidays now.
amen.

with love,
kim
xoxo

i am blogging!!
im so sorry it's been dormant for quite some time.

im currently addicted to tumblr now.
go see.go follow :)
i like it tumblr cause i can just reblog and i see that in this world, there are people that goes thru the same stuff as i do.
oh, the joy!

im not gonna waste this holidays.
i wanna make the best of it.
it's my last holiday before my SPM.
time to party!!

christmas is coming soon!!
im glad im 16 because the presents become cooler. woot~
but i dont feel the vibe yet.
gonna set up the christmas tree soon!!

i have so many things to do this holidays. my lazy ass is just killing me.
im addicted to one tree hill now.
it's like my heroin.gah!

i still got school homework. plenty of it.

imma go out and see the world.
keep myself in for far too long.totally pointless.
time to explore and enjoy youth.

gonna think hard about my 2010's resolutions.
it's gonna be tough.

enjoy 2009 before it's gone, people!

xoxo
your beloved blogger
kim

the year is almost over

happy december!!

honestly, im freaking out!!  it's already almost towards the end of the year.
i've got public exams next year and im gonna separate from my friends after that.
this is so scary..
i hate the thought of it.

i guess i should concentrate on the people that have cherished me and those that are worthy of attention.

i guess i'll be coming up with a new list of resolutions soon. and this time i wanna make it realistic.
well, i think my 2009 list was pretty realistic but i guess there was too much to keep up with.

i can feel a blardy good year in front of me!  
i'll f8#k up anyone that tries to ruin it for me.

cheers to u!

go sip on smthg today!make urself high!
and have a good time with the people u love!

wow, right?

this year has passed too fast. i dont think i've enjoyed this year enough yet.

u see people talking about high school being the worst years in life.

well, i believe otherwise.

next year, will be my last year with the people i've spent most of my life with. and im gonna separate from them?can u imagine that?

leaving to an unknown place with unfamiliar faces.it's scary..

we all talk about meeting one another at one particular spot during one particular time of the future. but what makes u so sure that u'll see all your friends again?

i admit. it is really creepy to try seeing into the future cause we're never really sure what will be ahead of us.

but they say, take life as a surprise. expect the unexpected. live through whatever that life has for us.

anyways, what im trying to say is that i've been pushing myself so hard in all directions that i didnt have that much time for the really important things in my life. my studies, my family and my friends.

even when the exams are over, i still find myself busy and unable to spend time with all of them like i used to.

damn ,the last few years of high school is suppose to be fun. but even in school everyday, i find myself missing all my friends.

i couldnt go to the last two parties, im sorry. i guess it's just that time of the year again where i go emotionally disturbed about separation from you guys.

yes, painful but yet oh-so beautiful

tumblr me :)

http://kimthefab.tumblr.com/ 

i've gotten my tumblr!!
made up my mind to keep both. tumblr is whr i mostly express myself in pictures and quotes. here is where i rant and share to the world in words :)
go see go see!

IT'S SO ME!!

tell me!

should i get a tumblr and delete this?

or should i have both?

one for rants and one for information perhaps??

what is the difference?

i always end up going on and on about nonsense reality.

when all u have to do is believe.

i know.cheesy aint it the title??

u're gonna say 'does she really think that it works?just believing?'

lemme tell u, IT DOES!

what do u do first thing in the morning? tell urself that it's gonna be a bad day? u're making yourself believe that it's gonna be a horrible day and you think that u are gonna die trying to pull through it.

no matter what the situation is. be it a beloved's death, a pretty heated argument with your best friend, an unpresentable egg in finals, or a broken leg from football we know that we still have to pull through life.

i dont know what has gotten into me. i know turning sixteen is suppose to mean that i've gotten up a cup size or maybe an awesome new red convertible like brats. I've got only one of those =P I think i've got the wisdom thing going on right now. and im proud of having it, although sometimes it pains my bloody mind that i think like an adult?? But that is what pushes me forward.

Do believe it when i say nothing is there to block us from reaching out to our dreams.

Make yourself believe it.Trust me, you'll never regret this.

We've all get into trouble and mishaps but what is life without them?

How boring can it be when u are happy everyday and there's nothing to challenge u to move forward in life?

And we are suppose to enjoy and appreciate the full spectrum of human emotion.

it's a gift to be able to go through it.

The best feeling is to know that u've overcome your problems and u're brave enough to face the obstacles in life.

If not for the the things that we encounter, would we be able to feel the great relief of returning home and running into the arms of our mothers?

Would we feel the gret comfort of falling into the arms of our loved ones?

It ain't so bad after all right?

Believe that today is gonna be great, tomorrow even better, the future the best.

all u need is time.

heartbreaks happen all over the world, every second. 

it doesn't take a crowd to hurt someone's heart. 

it just takes distance and silence to bruise them.

here i am, admitting to a scar in my heart. 

im not doing this to show people how terrible i feel.
i just wanna write something that can relate to people.
i feel that it's nice to share experiences with the world because we are one.

it's the time together that u'd miss most

the random messages u get at the most unexpected moments

the sweet talks that can give u the tingling sensation

the smile that parts across the face when u're praised

the feeling that u're loved even when the other person happens to be so far away

the nights that u'd stay up just to see their face

the crazy moments where u'll spill ur 'silliest things done'

the highly excited times where u'll share ur deepest darkest secret

the little things that are done that make u feel like u're the only one on this planet

the cute times when u do nothing but make fun of one another without getting angry because u're just too happy with that person

the times when open up urself to the person about ur past

the nights when u'll trade songs and share fabulous music

the way the other person make u see the world

the comfort u feel in just being urself

the one moment where the other person says 'u got me'

im not gonna deny that i dont miss it.

what can we do bout it now that it has passed?

like said before

'sometimes love comes around, and when it knocks u down 

just get back up when it knocks u down'

i know saying all this is gonna seem like 'woah!easier said than done'
of course it is!

i never said that im not upset. i am.

but how long can a person possibly be upset bout this?

what happened to the other fishes to the sea?

i hate using that cause i dont like being compared to a fish but i think it's the only suitable metaphore here.

thank goodness i have awesome friends around me to help me thru this.

and lucky enough i got a family to love and share magical moments with.

i dare u to accompany me on this path of healing if u'd allow me to hear ur story?
u know u cant do this alone :)

i'd be there for u

because caring for others heals the soul

when u're down..

'sometimes love comes around, and when it knocks u down,
just get back up when it knocks u down..'

we choose to cry over our losses, we choose to complain about our luck, we choose to criticize our flaws

we don't take time to realise how fortunate we are.
we see things,mostly material things because we're so intoxicated with the feeling how money can buy happiness.

we got this seriously wrong.

things happen for a reason. if things are meant to be, let it be. Why force it the way u want to be? Haven't u heard of destiny? If that limited edition pair of fabulous knocker heels is not meant to be yours, then there must be another that fits u perfectly. The other pair might not be limited but at least it ends up in ur closet. Life's never fair. Whoever said it is?

no matter how much it hurts us inside, we still have to move on in life. 

i only get to be sixteen once in my life. why ruin it?

we have friends there for us, we have family members who love us. dont let them down.

think about those that are suffering from wars. the children and the innocent wives.. that is seriously unfair for them. 

what have we got compared to them to complain about?

over over over!!

FINAL TERM EXAMS ARE OVERR!!

woot!this feels abso-fking-lutely awesome,i tell u.

but that doesn't mean im having less stress now.
i still got a long 'To-Do- List' to be done.
but at least it has nothing to do with studying
but it's all serious stuff.no joke.

i like the hectic life.

i like the noisy morning alarm scaring the shit out of me.

i like rushing down to office with coffee,better yet with a cab.

i like hours of long assignments,of course smthg that i like.

i like rushing home to have a nice shower.

i like meeting up with friends for dinner after that.

i like having drink and a good dance just to shake the day's stress off.

do it city style..

i dream of being in the fashion industry.
or like writing in magazines, fashion editor..

oh!the dreams!
they are so so far away..

it shall last.

i saw your face

with your smile that you brought along

it made my heart race

because i've been waiting far too long

i want to have the time where i can  just speak to you

i want to go months back when i can hang out with you

i miss the times when we go for random meals

oh,the beautiful memories time steals

i was overwhelmed to see you

double checking to see if it's true

u have no idea how much you've been missed by all

when we still look forward to your random telephone call

the memories of yesteryears

are grasped within our hearts

with strong hopes to last 
 and accompanied with bittersweet tears

Aaron Teo, you are missed by all.

when we take things for granted.

we wake up in the morning to find ourselves complaining about the same old boring routine. that's what we all do. we complain about having to eat at the same place and to wear the same pair of faded jeans. we do not appreciate how it has made a part of our life so significant. what if we didnt have even have a place to eat? you'd probably be thinking 'yeah right.my dad would get it for me' think again. not everyone is as fortunate as we are.

we take people for granted. we tend to use people only when we need them. without realising it, we dont appreciate them like how we are suppose to. We dont say 'I Love You' enough to our parents and to our dear friends. it's only when tragedy happens, then we realise how much we've negelected people and things. it's only when it's too late, then we'll learn our lesson.

why regret?

mummy told me never to.

=D

I LOVE YOU ,GUYZ!

sixteen things to do.

1. CLEAR my wardrobe.

2. Then fill it up with more clothes.

3. Get serious with my dancing.

4. To do a photoshoot.

5. Run a marathon for charity.

6. Go for a body massage!

7. Have a proper sleep of more than 10 hours.

8. Cut junk food down to five times a week.

9. Go for futsal matches.

10. Start to earn money, again.

11. Then try saving the money i have.

12. Be gentle and treasure things given.

13. Have a quiet 5-minute everyday.

14. Involve myself in a charity event.

15. Spend a day with the orphans.

16. Grow taller!

there's a reason why i chose 16. =)

the truth hurts..

should i say this is another rant that i have?

when i went out not long ago, i saw plenty of old man with young women, from China.

i suppose u see where this is heading to now.

I always have this thought  'Why cant the guys just keep their fucking dicks in their pants?!' especially when they are old and married. I know it's a guy thing to get it going but come on, u are married and isn't there your wife there for u to that with??

Even so, you think it's so cool going around showing ur homies that you pimping other girls,young and fresh ones. You say it loud and proud that you're cool and you're a man for doing that. That is where i want to correct you. YOU ARE A FUCKING PUSSY FOR DOING THAT. You are married to your wife. Dont tell me u dont have the guts to do it with her just cause she aint tight like before? You think she feels just as good to sleep with you. She's nice enough not to complain and u are oh-so-grateful by sleeping with a younger lady outside. You married her for goodness sake! Stick with her. 

It's seriously sad how i see ladies of their golden age, supposedly enjoying their time but their husbands break their opportunity of enjoying it when they swore on the altar that they will love till the very end. That is why i call u ball-less! U can't even keep up a promise! what can u do as a man?!

i so do not know why i used the pronoun 'you'. i dont think there'll be any old creepos reading my blog, Those that stash away young mistresses and buy fake LV goods for them cause they cant afford the real one. And the old lechers that dress desperately young to impress and those that can afford real stuff just for sex. Hey, i can't blame the young seductress cause that's what she does for a living. Karma will hit her good when she gets her veneral disease. I blame you for not being able to hold urself back from temptations!

oh and the other thing!

now guys are using this stupid thing 'You love me only if u sleep with me'.

like hello!!since when this came up!?!

Girls are not Kleenex ok. You dont purchase us from supermarkets. Don't mean when u giving gifts, u buying us. We can get what we want when we want, two times better than what u can give!You dont use us then dispose us just like that!

Don't take us for granted cause you know that we're there. I tell u what, we can party a million times harder and play a million times smarter than u. Wanna bet?

It's just our nature of being loyal.

But i think it's only right in society these days that we all play around with relationships. After all, we're not married.

This doesnt make it sound as if u can play with us!

Wait till ur heart gets crushed one day :)

Girls, imma be there for u.

We'll heal hearts together.

i hate it when they're right.

they told me not to try

they told me i would cry

they told me u would break my heart

they told me  it's best we're apart

Logic leads the way

But emotions make me sway

The gentleness of words

The uncompromising absence

talking bout the future like it's happening

going through the past like they were just songs to sing

what are u gonna do about it if im insecure like that

you never give me the assurance cause i know u're that bad

but i cant do this any longer

cause im not any stronger

how am i suppose to let go

i cant bear to do so

but they'll tell me i need to

cause that way,i'll be far from you.

still mad.

u know what made me bled the other day??

i was in a rush,heading to meeting at KFC and i saw this store that sold handbags.

OMFG to the maxx!!

THEY SOLD LOUIS VUITTON GRAFITTI!! what the bloody hell. i got so pissed!my blood boiled.i could feel my low blood pressure shoot up to the maximum level of high blood pressure.

im so mad! Marc Jacob's creations are awesome!! DONT BLOODY RUIN IT. damn damn damn!!

i was too mad, too upset and too MAD, i didnt have the time to take the picture. even when i left, i was in a rush..

i just managed to growl swear at the stall owner :)

parallel.

Parallel lines extending, into forever’s end,

Sorry broken hearts, that refuse to mend,

Destined never, to touch or to meet,

Could it be true love, that you seek?

I’ll write it all down, with a paper and a pen,

And then on your journey, will you I send,

To look for the one, who makes you sing,

Nameless songs to the sky and wind.

So bring me the light, of a dying star,

The song of a bird, who flew too far,

The scent of a flower, too late in spring,

And light from the moon, on silver wings.

A smile of compassion, in a world of sin,

The touch of a hand, upon wounded skin,

The portrait of a soul, the blind man drew,

All of these things, I ask of you.

Woven with the love, of the family and friend,

I’ll compose the symphonies, that to you, I’ll lend,

Pen down the stories, of the sun and the moon,

And turn them all into, sad pretty tunes.

So take my words, and hold them dear,

For there’s nothing else, you need to fear,

Go in search, of your long lost heart,

I’ll watch with rue, as you depart.

I hope you’ll find, your true love’s kiss,

Mend your heart, and get your wish,

Cause it sucked having, to write all this,

Since in the end, it’ll be you I miss.

*

Parallel lines extending, into forever’s end,

Sorry broken hearts, that refuse to mend,

Destined never, to touch or to meet,

Maybe it was you, that I did seek.

by: A-Mo-my-Nous =D

the world is in equal ratio.

'Kim's coming. I can HEAR her! '

' I bet that is Kim'

As u can see, i am tall. TALL TALL!

our head grows in ratio to our body,so does our feet.

In this case, my voice grows proportionally to my frame.

People complain i'm always too loud and i tend to disrupt things with my voice.

well i think this is a gift.

When attention is needed and u can't get it, I can call for it WITH my voice.

When u and i are in some form of danger, you can't find the voice to speak.. I can call for help WITH my voice.

When you need to get ur point across, i can intimidate, WITH my voice.

When you wanna find me but u can't cause u're too short, stuck in the crowds, you can always find me, WITH my voice.

When you need a cheer up, I am there, WITH my voice.

When you need an awesome supporter, I will cheer WITH my voice.

When you need a speaker after a late night out drinking and karaoke-ing together, I still can speak for you WITH my voice.

Can you do all that without dificulty?

I know i don't.

We all have our own unique traits and my voice happens to be one of many that i have =)

Your warped face and annoying eyebrows might be a part of your 'uniqueness' but i dont recall blabbing crap and complaining about it. I am nice.

If you still have a problem with my voice, FUCK OFF.

unity.

We're all seeing it..
No enthusiasm for celebrating it..

We're all a country. You complain about the country not going any further. That's because the people refuse to bond. We're all blaming one another, in this case , blaming one's race for their mistakes. It's like blaming a whole family when one of the member is wrong. The thing that we all do not see is that it's not the race that should be blamed. It should be the people that has done wrong. For the sake of the happiness in life,we should all unite to 'abolish' those that harms the country. Not create more conflicts and pushing great people out of our life.


It's sad how little children live their life happily in school with friends everyday when suddenly their parents tell them not to hang out with a certain group just because of their race.

I think this stereotype thinking and classification of races should stop.. LIKE SERIOUSLY.

delectable...

eyes to die for
the lips to melt for
and the body to kill for
plus, he's a dancer..

*drooling*

when u want a time capsule.

im seriously alarmed at how fast time has passed over the past few months..

i remember back to the beginning of the year, i was so moppy bout going into form 4 and at that point, tomorrow seemed like forever to me..

as i stroll along the corridors in school, now i see images of myself. I miss being rebellious!! i can't stand being who i am now. I feel as if im back to being a bird stuck in a cage,but this time not physically. My soul has been locked up in there.

i wanna be so loud that ppl can hear me from two blocks away.

i wanna run around and smack all the backs.

i wanna be able to laugh like a monkey and throw my head back and forth.

i wanna jump about just to express my happiness.

Now, i just feel plain old and mature. ewww..

I can't wait for exams to be over.. I want my six weeks of holidays!! Hate the system for cutting down an entire week! =(

too sweet to take in.

Say words
that can bloom flowers
sugar coated letters
that makes my heart flutter
Perished in thoughts
Carried away in hopes
Wake me up
because im leading nowhere
with this stupid set up
that will leave my bare..

doesn't mean when you don't hear it
things do not happen
i have emotions that i do not show
cause im still trying to live in pretence
that the things i hear isnt real.

hear me out.

I don’t know where to begin

Just give me a moment to let it sink in

I can’t bear the weight of this

Nostalgia hit me in the head, ‘oh how I miss..’

The pain I have to hide

It’s killing me inside

I see my future shatter

I see my memories alter

Because things aren’t like they seem to be

Oh how I thought I was lucky to be me

Wasn’t I in mind?

Do you really love with your heart?

Can I still call u mine?

Because I hate to know how things drift apart

Promises of being there for me

When my heart aches

When my problem goes a-mess

But don’t you see

What you’ve done cannot bear

Any deeper scar in me

.

I’m not just saying

I so do wish I am fucking dreaming

Cause I’d even slap myself

To know that this ain’t reality.

How can things be like before

When history has already unfold itself.

How I wish everything I hear isn’t true

Because deep inside, I still want to love you.

going at Bolt speed.

i admire his determination.
i love his courage.
i want his strength.

USAIN BROKE TWO WORLD RECORDS! hurrah for him!

i'm trying to save money at the rate he's running.
my piggy bank's gonna get so fat so quick! =D

what is it like?

it's insane!
in a good way,the feeling it gives send chills down my spine.
on the other note, it leaves with that great burning sensation that makes you restless.
im indecisive
because each choice has its own consequences.
which one am i prepared to face?
can i pull through this silly dilemma?

THIS IS SUCH A WASTE OF MY FUGLY TIME.

i hate it when i love you so much
and i can't make myself hate what u did.

i am confiding myself with food.

i might get hated.

THE WORLD SHOULD STOP PRODUCING FAKE GOODS!!

darn it!it's irresponsible people like you that support these stupid actions.

just get the damn original thing ok!!

dont ruin the good nature of it.

i know u think it's probably not worth it to pay for the product's brand.
if that's the case, dont get the retarded fake version as well!
there's so many brands on the market.
get something else.
dont bloody get the fake one.

u probably think i should leave the world alone but NO!
im not gonna let that happen.

the scenario's like this.
a girl of her early twenties finally getting her dream Louis Vuitton after 3 years of saving.
then she uses it out.
and sees another ah lien using the same bag.
and the ah lien bought it at 1/12 of the price!
it totally ruins the excitement of owning something branded and nice!
the thrill of owning the bag and smelling the leather
ALL CRUSHED
just cause of assholes like you who supports goods-imitation!

stop it!stop it!stop it!