yes or no?

should i make a totally obvious Christmas wishlist??

RAWR!

=P

i can't wait going to KL.beats staying in Kuching.

pizaaaa....

well,i just had dinner at nine just now.went for dinner at Silhouette @Spring.

The food is not bad. i liked the pizza though.
The service also not bad.but the clinging of the plates was kinda loud.don't know why.
The people were friendly and nice.
The music was good.nice atmosphere.
The stary-eyes of the workers were kinda freaky.lol.
The food presentation was like-able.
and the price was reasonable.
I'd give a 3.5/5.

honestly,my expectations were higher. =P

anyhoo, i'm like totally full right now.i paid for dinner with my salary.damn proud of meself.lol.i'd give a pat on my own shoulder =D

ok..umm..i don't want to complain now cause people from other country are in poverty.so yeah,i wont complain.i am zapping the 'grateful' feeling in me now. like woah!

blah...there's this dance workshop from the 6th to the 8th december @ near the old court house.it's a three-day thing that lasts from 10am to 10pm every day. It's Rm150 for the whole thing.the dances will be taught by some group from KL.i've gotten opinions from people that went and they said the experience was totally unforgettable and fun.if your interested, please let me know asap!

i hope i can make it there.i really really really really wanna go.like badly.
it's almost as close as me wanting to pee.
ok.that sounded disgusting. gross!

i wanna do that!blood gushing to my head is so cool!!woot~
going nuts..

dancing is a passion,understand?

??

u keeping urself updated with my blog?? GOOD!!

today's post will be how tired i am and happy?
gosh.

goodnight.

lol.

i've got fever now.Imma sick sick chicken/rooster. =(
that's my chinese horoscope.im not implying anything naughty.
i can't possibly end up going to work sick tomorrow.i can't spread those germies to my little dears..
maybe they got it to me cause they were coughing like mad during lunch yesterday.hmmmm...
anywayz, i forced Eldarius to perform magic for my little dears =D
so farnie!can't wait till how it would be like tomoro.i hope nobody screws up.

oh yea, welcome back Zakwan!!i hope you had fun with the rest of my bitches today =P
i miss you guys..

i wanna go shopping now.i believe that by shopping,my fever would go.
lols
whattacrap!!

somehow i don't think i am growing again. =(
i expect to see myself grow 1mm everyday. im loving the impossible again,huh?
oh wells.
i wanna get tall.

gosh...i'm feeling hotter and hotter now (literally and indirectly)
should i take an early rest?lols

also, my sis is gonna finish her spm so soon!!yahtzee!!we can go shopping.i cant wait till i get my salary la.so interesting. =D and i also promised to cook spaghetti for my little dears to eat.i hope i'm still in touch with my cooking charm.wasehh..

i wanna hve people sleeping over as soon as my sis gets over that blardy exam.i wanna do something crazy!we're gonna keep u updated.we've already got ideas in mind.

i will be posting pics up tomoro.pictures of me friends and the little devil dears that i teach.

i got dance class tomoro too!i hope i don't get so sick.

get well soon,me!

the asian guy.

I’ve just numb-ed my cheeks cause of my endless smiling session when I had a blur vision of what my Asian guy would look like.

I know.omg,right?i’m gonna date an asian?

Lol.

Well, from what I saw in my mere dream-vision was this guy.

Duh!!

And he was cool??hmm..in a way he looked cool.not the ah beng kind.

He had this charming smile that made him almost lose his eyes.lmfao.

He conversed well.

And his dressing is pretty impressive =P

Not the chains and all. AND pretty decent guy with a bunch of friends

He likes to joke and kid around.So not the boring kind.

This one is mad with ideas yet so fun!

He’s a nice body too!SO not like the other pathetic Kuching losers that wants to be really skinny!! Like what the hell for?!

OMG!

It’s as if I’ve actually known the guy really well.

I think I’ve seen him before.

I’m not telling…

just another boring holiday

I'm so so so so so so so so upset that i won't be going to Singapore for Christmas.OMG!!!the hotel room is like almost 1k per night.so blardy exp =( i'm sad to the max!!i've been looking forward to going there and shop like crazy so i can actually chill and make up for the bloody times i've lost and wasted being stuck at home doing nothing!!!the only thing i like about this holiday is that i'm working(which means i don't get stuck at home plus i earn my own money) and i'm taking dance classes.

so much for the unforgettable holiday huh? urgh!

what is it you dont get when im suppose to enjoy my hols now so i can actually focus next year?gosh!!

ok, so right now, i'm like pretty tired everyday cause i am like sitting down the whole day and being in front of the computer. straining my eyes and pumping my brain is taking up a lot of my energy. and being stressed out when the kids climbs all over you is so power-drenching.maybe it's because they see me as an older friend although they address me as a teacher.

Remember the kid that said that i was cute?if u read my older post, you would understand. during the 3-hour break, when we watch a movie now, he sits on my lap. =D well, that's because he's so skinny that his button on his pants hurts his ass ,so practically him sitting on my fat thighs is like cushy pillow for him.lol.but i get to hug him!!so cute!

On Friday, we'll be having an interactive lesson so we're gonna teach the kids how to make sandwiches and fruit salad.yummy!i hope none of the students end up cutting my finger because the teacher is suppose to hold the food and guide the student to cut. and in my own kitchen, i always cut my own fingers!!

my dad is coming back from dubai tomorrow.omg!he's gonna make me cut my hair.i think i should cut it soon because i was thinking bout doing my portfolio so i need time for my hair to grow out nicely,like 2 weeks..

i wanna get this haircut cause it fits the asian face but i'm wearing glasses and that makes me totally geeky and so not nice.lol.and i might be mistaken for a freaking ah lien....ewww!


this hairstyle is chic too!!!i love this more actually.or maybe because she has a hotter nose and looks more of an ang moh.so super duper nice...i want this.at the same time i might need a nose surgery.like urgently!



if i was skinny and had a tanner skin, i'd definitely do this haircut.it's so cool!!like super madness man!!yet so sexy and stylish.it's like the party-mode hair too!!i adore this.i've always had this thing to do such hairstyle and rihanna definitely did this one very very well.hands down!

suggestions for my hair?maybe i should just layer it and trim it like old me old me?

i love the impossibles

Judging by the title, you can see what it's roughly about.

Dont u agree that it's like so true?? it must be a human nature that we all love something that we know we can't get. true?

the things i loved so far has been so unreal that it disappoints me so badly and it makes me so depressed.

i love to think that i can get anything i want when i go shopping. yeah right!pfft.

i love to think that there will be this perfect night when you spend it with someone special, dancing on the road during wee hours to the music from his car stereo...

i love to think that performing to the public would be allowed.

i love to think that i can actually be given the permission to work in one modelling gig.

i love to think that I am so skinny but with the goodies.

i love to think that my hair is wavy and sexy.

i love to think that i have the perfect nose bridge.

i love to think that i get to zap my wardrobe and make it totally functional.

i love to think that i would not have to stay in Malaysia for SPM.

i love to think that i would not separate classes with my friends for the year 2009.

i love to think that i can have a white Christmas, wherever.

i love to think that you will feel the same like how i feel.=


i love to think that I can actually spend my holidays just to fucking hang out with my friends and chill before next year starts.

i love to think that you'd understand how i feel.

i love to know that i won't be so bloody emotional the whole time.

i love to think that i actually own Gucci.dream on...

i love to think that I am 5" 11.

i love to think that i have at least a million in my account. -_-

i love to think that i am like happy to dress everyday.

i love to think that i wouldn't have such huge and ginormous feet!!they are size8(uk)!!

i love to think that i can actually sing well.

i love to think that i can play my guitar.

i love to think that i will be completing my Spanish in at least the intermediate level.

i love to think that Ben & Jerrys is made for me.

i love to think that i'm not a Malaysian.who wouldn't?

I love to think that I can enjoy my teen years first before i end up becoming some wild brat or some jerkish loser when i end up in college.just get it clear!

i love to think that i can graffiti my room wall.

i love to think that i can do all dances nicely.

i love to think that i can drive.many obvious reasons....

i love to think that i can get married so crazily and yet so romantically.

i love to think that i own seven dozens of high heels and sandals.

i love to think that i am happy with who i am cause if i did, i wouldn't be writing any of this.

after my work is over,i seriously wanna get my portfolio done and i want one picture to be in black and white.

oh,so sexyy....

the previous blog was about my-usual-annoying-self. =P

i'm the type of person that admits what i am and i don't hide it.and i think i'm proud of that.

people find me terribly straight forward.you may hate it.but think of it..

scene 1: You have terrible attitude and everyone seems to be avoiding u and u dont feel it cause you're so full of yourself.being a good friend like i am,i'd tell u straight in your face instead of backstabbing you and talking bout junk behind your back.which is better?

scene 2: You're picking a super gorgey outfit for some really special occasion.would you pick a friend that tell u 'u look good!' in everything?? or would u pick someone so picky and such a critic like me? =D after all, you wanna look your best.

if u know me well enough, you'd know that i am the person that says it like it is.I'm sorry for not being very ethical or polite but i'm me.

what can you do?

NOTHING!

p.s. there's another Mitsubishi car show in Spring from the 2nd to the 7th of Dec.i was supposed to go.but i can't turn up for the gig,again. mehh...

morning post

This is seriously depressing.

I don’t know but I feel that I’m losing touch with my friends.

One by one.

I’m sorry if I’m not the type that goes out all the time.

Too bad if I can’t talk on the phone much right now. I am banned from calling too much.

I’m sorry even if it’s your house that I can’t go to.

I’m working.

I hope you understand that.

It’s not that I’m avoiding you guys or I don’t remember.

I can’t find the time now and I don’t have the permission.

If you are a friend, you’d understand me.

I do miss you guys.

And I might understand if you have your own plans and that you’re busy.

But I miss you guys.

OMG! currently, I don’t know what I have been doing lately. It’s been so depressing. It was only last night that I had a night without missing anyone and fretting about what I am suppose to do or killing myself for not being able to go out. It felt nice and I was happy. It’s not that I don’t want to miss you guys but I have to stop for a while.

I’m so PMS! I think I should shoot myself bang my head on the wall. I go lethargic just thinking about all this. Even when I come to work, I don’t have anyone to talk to. I do. But not much. I am stupid and lousy in my Mandarin. Gosh, I feel so annoyed about myself being so blardy emotional. It’s disgusting!

I just want to fall sick right now so I have a reason to feel lousy and quiet. Quietness makes me insane! I hate misunderstandings that happen in my daily life. It’s so freaking depressing and sucky. That’s what slowly drains me. I want to become me again. Badly.

How is it that you don’t understand that I can’t be kept in all the time. I hope you don’t make the wrong decision because I don’t want to be like those who go wild and all out once they are set free. At least let me learn from my mistakes. It wouldn’t hurt kill me. Don’t you believe that I can do it? Where did the trust go? And why is it that every time that you have to go through my things? I know you’re doing it cause you love me but where’s the privacy and respect? Cause everyone is equal. I hope one day you’ll see that this is important. I love you too.

Let me fly…

voila!

i'm feeling kinda happy now.i got to dress up and go for a dinner.lol.that pathetic huh?i know.but i guess it was fun?

it was then when i started imagining bout my own wedding =D i'm like super excited bout it already.i wanna get married.i wanna get married.i wanna get married.i wanna get married.i think i am going nuts.lol.it's just the adrenaline pumping to think about your own wedding.so cool!!!

and along the way,i was picturing the guy.haha.my groom.lol.like woah!!i got so high.maybe because i toasted too loud and got a bit whacko.but seriously,weddings are cool.with english songs and hip songs and great friends.

i wanna blab and blab so badly but my brain is not letting me too.im just too tired to get words spitting out from my brain.i think i might even kill a bird or a lizard if i have a catapult.i have work tomoro and i cant imagine how i can teach them especially when im not prepared yet and when i'm this tired and so-not looking forward to them.hahaha.lol.

have u heard me say this before?but i think i love dancing.although the lessons can be a bit gah but i still like it.no.love it. =D

and i like this picture..so so sexy!!rawr.it's like salsa and street dance.so contemporary.i want this!i want this!!my man has to dance!

i got to get something off my chest before i sleep.i bloody hate stereotype kuching people who think they must be all thin to look pretty.all they've got is a flat piece of chest and i feel bad for them especially when they've lost the ass to fill their dress.what a pity!!i hate them skinny bitches =P i could just sit on them and squash them with me ass!if u skinny and u have them boobies and ass then it's good for u!!flaunt it ;P

lol.lol.i got to stop before i get lame ass comments again.haha.

blah!

i feel bad for not posting anything yesterday.well, that was all thanks to some people for freaking me out with ghost stories @ camp permai and stuff.i got so freaked out i didnt want to stay in the office room alone!!i had my mother with me the whole time i walked up the stairs and in to my room to off my lights and my air-cond.i feel like a coward.i mean,who isnt?especially when it comes to the supernatural stuff.

nothing much has happened so far.except the fact that i watched Youtube live today at 9am!!can u believe it?on a Sunday morning.what's worse is that my mum,sis and I decided to have breakfast with friends at 7.45am!!!(i don't even eat that early when I'm working) and because of that breakfast,i have to wake up at seven.holy cow!!this is so bad. like terrible bad,bad.

it's like i dont even have a day off cause i have to wake up early tomoro!!so unfair!!but i got to watch Fred live!!He's so so SO different from what he is on his videos.He definitely did prep himself well. =D I LOVE FRED!!

i can't be writing much now cause i've got a wedding dinner at seven and i got to get ready now.lol.it's us girls.i'm sure you understand.but it's not like i put on makeup and stuff.i just love taking my time and i have no clothes to wear.why?cause im pui(fat). =(

i'll try to make another longer post later.see ya!!

mwacks,darlings!

if i were a boy.

i know the title's going to make people say 'But she's already like a man!'.

Arent i right?? =D

anyways, i'm in love with the song. And guys,listen and learn something from it!

IF I WERE A BOY-BEYONCE

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I'd roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it.
Cause they'd stick up for me.

[Chorus:]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man.
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleepin' alone
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waitin' for me to come home (to come home)

[Chorus]

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

[Chorus]

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
Yeah you don't understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you're just a boy

I usually highlight the parts that are important to me but if i do that for this song,it would be like the whole song cause it's so good!

Guys, again, pay f-king close attention to this song!

enjoy... <3

you've been a great friend
you made me feel the world was mine
like my powers had no end
but this isn't the right time

you treat me so special
you make me feel that there's only me
you're always punctual
but sometimes you let things be

it means a lot to know
u dare to let your feelings show
but a part of me aches
because even if i tell you,that pain,you cannot take.

i need healing.

they make you smile

today is like the fourth day of my job and omg, i'm like so stressed out. The kids bully me like terribly. =( when i raise my voice,they dont even care.They continue throwing erasers at one another and walking around class like I'm not even there.

It's not that they dont like me.It's just that i dont speak so much in Chinese to them when I'm teaching English so they don't really connect with me?I don't know.The main reason for that is cause my Mandarin sucks!

there were a few things today that made me want to remember and laugh like mad though

morning session
ME : Give me a sentence with the preposition 'between'.
BOY 1: Teacher!Teacher!I know! *waves his hands excitedly*
ME: Yes?
BOY 1 : My father was between me.
ME: oh.....?? *and i hush down and laugh like crap in my head*

afternoon session
ME: Continue the sentence : I wish that i can be a...
BOY 2: Lau se (meaning :teacher), I wish that i can be a teddy bear.
ME: Ahhh...!!so cute!!*and i start pinching his cheeks as he slowly blushes*

~This boy is so adorable k!~

ME: Ok, now i want you to write a sentence starting with 'My English Teacher is....'
BOY 2: ok,ok.Teacher, I know.
ME: 'so mok'? (meaning 'what' in chinese)
BOY 2: My Enklish teacher is bery smart and cute.
*aaahhhh...my heart melted*
BOY 3: My English teacher is crazy!
ME : Yes, you can also write that.
BOY 3: Teacher, how to spell crazy?

=P

Teaching is definitely exhausting but i manage to survive these past few days. Tomorrow,they gonna sit for a test then have fun the whole day!!PLAY TIME!

i think i wanna make them watch a poverty movie.lol.

i can't wait till my Sister's SPM is over,man!!I need to go out like seriously!most of the time i stay home and give her the moral support of me being around.I'm not saying that it sucks.It's good cause i have some Me-time but i wanna so shopping!!go lepak or go do some sports!

luckily i've got dance classes tomoro night.Something to keep me high for the weekends!

wish me luck for tomoro!!i might not sleep tonight =D

this is crazy!!

This is so so so CRAZY!!haha.it's like the Mr Hottie and Mrs Hottie together in the same video.I love the dance and i love Justin Timberlake's booty shaking.He's so cool!!!He even looks hot in the video!!

BOOTY-SHAKING IS FUN!!lol

belly dancing is a nice idea but i'm like busy with work.gosh..well,at least i got the opportunity to go for dance classes.

I wanna see my friends.
WATCH THE VIDEO YA'LL!have fun.this laugh is dedicated for u =D

tutu love.

im in love with tutus tutus tutus tutus.Say it a lot of times and you'll think that you're say pork in Hokkien or some new native word.lol.

isn't that girl just the cutest?i love the colour of the tutu.she's running and from her backside, she look's like she's having fun?i wanna have the feeling of being free and totally carefree.


this girl looks happy enough to be wearing the dress.you may not see her face but her lips are visible.i love the puffyness of the tutu.this is Betsey Johnson's too.


this is a Valentino worn on the runway and in the streets by Victoria.Can u believe it?It's like she's everything i like and yet,she's still not smiling.pfft.what a waste.

i adore the baby pink colour and the nice hemmings.ohh...im drowning in this love...


WE SHOULD HAVE MORE OF THIS IN KUCHING!!!omg.i rarely see people wearing stuff like this here.i dont think we even have stuff like this here.sucks..i think i saw one @ Padini but it was kinda long and it made my legs look FAT.maybe they are but i just didnt like what i saw in the mirror.

This is another one from Betsey Johnson as well.I just love the creations..

I wanna look for the perfect tutu dress or if i have the time,i might make one myself.pfft.like i have the time and patience for it.

*hint hint* =D


p.s. Darlings,i am kinda busy these days.I'll try put up the pics we took for the last day of school aite?miss u guyz!