thinking of you...

i heart the song.the songwriting is awesome too.so much life to it..lol.

so right now,im addicted to this song and Pokerface by Lady Gaga.

at the momento,im like feeling empty in some part of me.the time when i feel restless and i just wanna listen to some music and fall asleep in a dark, cold room with my warm comforter.

i know..it's a Sunday afternoon and i shouldnt waste it.that's why im typing this post.oh you better love me.. =D

anyways,i've been doing a lot of missing lately.it's like i miss things,people and some other stuff.

i miss the times when i can just barge into my sis's room and mess her things up because i know that she'd clean it back.

i miss the time when i jump on her bed on purpose,knowing that she'd get annoyed.

i miss Sundays with daddy when we eat chicken rice together.except that i eat chicken and meat,with no rice.

i miss hanging out with my fellow 3b-ians and how we used to talk endlessly during lessons and we'd akways be happy.

i miss being naughty and happy like i didnt have to care about anything.not my hair,my attitude,my volume,my hyperactivity...

i miss the times when i bully the person sitting in front of me.how i use my artistic creativity on his ears and his neck.

i miss the crazy sleepovers we had.

i miss the oreos and milk before bed with u guys...

i miss hiding myself behind the pillow whenever i watch horror movie with my sister.i haven't watched any since...im waiting for you to come back,babe!!

i miss how we used to go 'jogging' and end up buying waffles and ice blended coffee.

i miss fighting for ice cream with my sis and how i always win cause my mouth is way bigger than hers.

i miss the crazy afternoons at home with my bestie.im sorry if i never made it out with you.

i miss the crazy gossip sessions in class with my Barbie family.

i miss having the Bear Clan and how we acted like maniacs doing the crazy bear action.

i miss singing 'You Can Have Whatever You Like' at BM tuition and doing the crazy dance with those crazy dudes.

i miss not having to worry about my studies at all like i was stress-less..

i miss how i was able to watch 'Australia's Next Top Model' eventhough it was the night of PMR.even for tests now,i have to burn the midnight oil like it's an exam.

i miss going swimming with the guys and how they bully me at badminton before that.

i miss having to be so pissed at my sis whenever i had to wait for her to get something done.procrastination is never the answer but that's a dead habit of hers.

i miss burning my skin under the sun @ noon with my sister and how we complained like crazy when we got burnt.

i miss laughing with my sis at my aunt when she does her infamous 'Bicycle' dance.

i miss staying up late with my sister and how we sang horribly and off key into the mic.

i miss karaoke-ing with my sis in perth.we should have ended up dancing on the chair =D

i miss having the 3b reunions and the swimming evening.im not complaining bout the 4b now but i do still think about the year before.

i miss having family days and how me and my sis used to giggle so hard and so loud that it made my daddy angry.i've got no one to giggle with now.sis,i hope u still giggle when u come back.

i miss going all the way to Matang to picnic and eat the whole afternoon with my sis and how she'd be there for me to make sure i dont fall when i stepped on the rocks.but she always end up laughing at me.

for all these things which i miss,i know i cant do anything that can make time turn back.it's just memories that i know that i'll be grateful for..

this is a part of growing up and taking responsibilities.

i love you all so much..

ordeals.

"We make those who love and care for us cry but we cry for those who do not love and care for us"

i got this in a forwarded email.and well,i think it's almost entirely true.life is so ironic.

it's cause u make me smile
it's cause u make me cry
my heart no longer runs dry
with emotions filled inside.
but i can't tie you down
i can't keep you in
because feelings will change,
this i realize,
this i realize...

i lost my common touch.im losing my undefined sense of feeling.my soul has been snatched.

there are times when you would feel really really down and think the world has turn its back on you.it's just seriously depressing.

this song might be a cheer up!!and if there's nobody to dedicate it to you, im specially posting this up for you.have a good sing!!

what's in the air??

it's the day of love and more love and kisses and more kisses...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

to sis @ aus
to daddy @ indonesia
to all my dear bitches for being there for me all the time
to the people that are just on the 'Ok' scale =P
to the people that i've hurt in my life but i still miss and love

with love,
kim.



p.s. if it's not your own money that you're spending but it came from ur parents,LOSER!!way way NOT impressive at all..

stick with me

haven't got the free time.haven't got the free time.haven't got the free time to post something good.

i think imma make u all drool when im free. =D

i haven't camwhored in a long time.maybe i should start.boost me confidence a bit more.

im tired tired tired tired.my eyebags are visible-r than usual and i start to sleep really early.

im starting to love the feeling of running and panting really hard like it's so hard to breathe and when im out of breath.

i wont apologise for what i've become
this is a blessing in disguise
after all that has to be done is done
i'd see the true side of you
you'd cheer me on even if i failed
you'd guide me through even if im lost
you'd stay with me even if i've been a bitch
you'd be happy for me if i achieved goals
you'd be proud of me even when i fall
you'd aid me well even if it's just a bruise
you'd encourage me to be the best even if it's impossible
you'd believe in me when everyone turn their backs against me
you'd be my friend through thick and thin.

time does not allow me to be with you all.but u have to know that i still do think bout you guys...

you could have done a better job at being a loser.

i miss blogging!!

school work has been very unkind to me
tuition has been very tiring
extra curricular activities sucked out all my energy

i've lost confidence in myself.
why?
why did it happen?
is it because of people like you that keeps pushing me down?
never giving credit whenever it is due.
instead u find all my mistakes just to crush me.
you dont appreciate and value me
you think that im no good for anything.

the pressure is killing me
making me panic
making me weak
making me bad
yet,i can't run away from all that.
forced to face it
forced to break down
forced to like it.

i shall now learn to be optimistic!!

yes,i will start tomorrow.

at the same time, conquer 2009,ya'll!