CLASS OF 2010!

the holidays begin TODAY.

i'm so hyped up about it. i wanna go out and just chillax.

i can't wait for my trip!

i wanna go to the beach to tan myself.

and rest my eyes on the 'scenery' there.

if u get what i mean ;)

i hear the people there are pretty hot!

woot!

im high .

im single aren't i?

i should enjoy. that's life. :)

it's daddy's birthday today!!

daddy 

daddy 

daddy

i wanna thank you so much for all that you've done

and im truly sorry for the tantrums that i throw.

i guess i'm just like u :)

thanks for giving me more than i can have.

you've always been the one that there's to support me emotionally.

i love you.

i don't wanna be a hypocrite.

i know i've been writing about stuff on how girls should make their stand and get over and stay strong..

i'm giving myself 3 days to cry if i want to.i've got no time left.

and this time im prioritizing it all very well.

i mean i'm trying to see reality right here.

and whatever that has been happening in the past ten months of my life was just too good to be true?

i can't really decide on that but then 

i'm here to make a vow to enjoy my last year in high school the best!

i don't wanna be wasting days, just sulking away.

in short : be a player! ;)
im out!

update update!

since i see some readers, i thought an update might be great!

anyways, 

tomorrow night, i'll be doing a performance with a group of my friends.

we'll be dancing to 3 songs.

Beware of the Dog -Jamelia

Bailalo - Kat Deluna

My Humps - Pussycat Dolls.

of course we're not doing the full song!

we're just taking a minute out of each song.

and there's also a duet / contemporary dance

to

Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis.

it's the version from So You Think You Can Dance.

i swear! it is awesome!! i'm so proud of all the dancers. 

there's a total of 8 of us.

when we started out, almost half of the group was quiet and shy.

after 2 months of endless rehearsals and being together,

i do see them turn into someone different.

someone more daring and confident about themselves.

someone that perseveres and fight for something they like.

someone that can think right and 

i was surprised by how mature they could be.

i am so in love with my babes!

after tomorrow night, all the weekdays of rehearsals are gone. 

no more weekends at the studio.

no more frustration over dance steps

no more confusion about counts and beats

no more worries about colourful costumes .

it's definitely gonna be a sad 'goodbye' 

but then these are the memories that we have in our hearts.

all the afternoons of heart-to-heart talk

the tears and the heart pain

the bruises and blood spilt

the conflicts and jokes

all of those will close as a chapter in our lives.

crap! i don't wanna end up bawling after our performance. :(
just secretly pray for me  please :)

IT'S MY SIS'S 19TH BIRTHDAY TODAY!!

i can't believe i'm not there to celebrate it with her! :(

it sucks!

but there's always a next year, i believe.

she's like a sister/bff/horrible babysitter.

i miss the crazy times we had.

i'm still not used to not having u around eventhough it's been 2 years.

darn.

I LOVE YOU,SIS!

distance sucks..

been through it before?

MAY OH MAY!!

MAY IS HERE. 

MAY IS GONNA BE SCARY.

JUNE IS GONNA BE SCARIER.

BUT MAY'S MY SISTER'S BIRTHDAY. :)

I MISS HER TONNES. 

I CAN'T WAIT TO BE THERE WITH HER NEXT YEAR.

TWO SISTERS TOGETHER?

THERE'S ALWAYS MISCHIEF! ;)

OH, LIFE WOULD BE DIFFERENT IF I DIDN'T HAVE A SISTER.

I LOVE HER TO BITS!

how am i suppose to feel?

the teachers are telling us that they cant help us anymore.

we're literally helpless

does that mean hopeless as well??

should i be worried?

i just realised that this month is passing by really quick with the crazy rehearsals and all.

i can't wait to get the performance over and done with.

oh yea, did i tell u?

imma be performing at my school's 'Musical Evening' 

gonna be dancing!

hope all turns out well!

i've never rehearsed for anything so hard in my life!

even training for interschool was way easier and much more relaxing.

June is gonna be a crazy month.

i'll make it through alive

im just not sure if i'll still remain sane

or lose my senses.

wish me luck?