what's upsetting me.

I know I'm suppose to be happy cause Charles and Keith has this really great bazaar sale outside Parkson in Spring but i still feel lousy.Maybe it's because I bought my first place of heels there for RM 150 and i saw it at the bazaar there for only RM75.

SO WTF!!!

It's suppose to be meaningful but i see it on display for that kinda price just after a six or seven months i bought it??damn man!

The other crappy thing is that i can't perform @ Boulevard with my friends on the 14th December.But most of them can't go so I'm a bit over it.JUST A BIT!

Dad's making me cut my hair but i really dont want to.He's making me promise him that i comb my hair all the time.That's something i so do not do.I usually comb it one to three times and I'm done.I mean i do care about my hair but i like it messy and he doesn't.He suggest that i get a guy haircut like the crewcut.It's sexy and i like it.But at the moment I'm not exactly in the shape to be fitting that kind of hairstyle and i have an absolutely hideous nose.I think I'm gonna tie it up so it looks neat and i might add a headband so i look like a super geek and totally innocent??

at the same time,i need to lose weight too but i'm just too lazy to.gosh..i hate it when i have that much extra flesh under my skin.it might even be just plain fats.EWW!!i'm just enjoying the slacking life too damn much now.

i still dont want to think that i'm separating with my class because the idea of it is not nice at all.it's just pure sadness and madness all together.

The next one is that I've got this so-called-gig as a car model for BMW!!can u believe it?!?!?!OMG!!and it's like i have to turn it down cause i obviously cant go.I mean this thing is so unbelievable cause BMW is such an honourable car company or whatever.omg!omg!omg!the best part about it this time is that I AM NOT A REPLACEMENT MODEL!!and not everyone was informed about it. =P

eat your heart out!

what's this thing that makes car models or whatever-you-call-it cheap anyway??not all are like showgirls ok.BLOODY STEREOTYPES!!you seriously need some time to grow up.

I'm freaking out right now cause I'm spending money that i dont have in Kuching and i have to loan it from my mother.She's teaching me how to manage my own money and make me realise that money-making isn't easy.She's making me responsible.Going on,I'm starting work tomorrow and i'm so scared that by the end of my working term, I'll be short of money for shopping at overseas because Dad told me we might be going away for a month.I'm going to be crying so much if I'm short of money.He's giving me pressure,so indirectly.I've got presents to buy for friends.It's gonna be so energy-sucking.urgh..

and i can't imagine spending Christmas away from home too.I think Mum will suggest to Dad that we do stay here for Christmas.I wanna stay so badly but i still wanna get out from this small butthole. =(

Who needs a babysitter??I'm good with children =)

I am in need of money.lmfao!!any suggestions on what i can do??