im caving in,

slowly.

i let it take me in,

the quietness.

i realise,

no busy schedule

can distract me enough

to push the thoughts out of me.

i realise, 

there's no one,

no one to trust.

i realise,

the life's circle,

has people coming in 

and vanishing off

to someplace

far off.

i realise, 

that efforts you make,

they get misinterpreted.

i realise,

that only in trying

i get accused

of struggling

in doing something right.

i realise,

the number of tears 

don't compensate 

for life's lessons.

i realise,

that 'inner beauty'

is just a comfort term.

i realise,

being judged

both has its ups and downs

however, hurtful.

i realise,

we all grow up 

sometimes, with things

that we could have wished for

but greed got in the way.

with a little hope

and a silent prayer,

let it be beautiful memories

that make me smile

at the end of the day.